Monday, December 29, 2008

New apartment!!

Yay! I called Diamond Realty and found out that I did get the new apartment, so that's wonderfully good news. This place is so gross; I'm so desperate to get out. :) I can go get the keys and all that tomorrow afternoon, and I'm putting in my 30 days notice today. I have to have Matthew's signature on that, but since he's coming by soon anyway that'll work great. So yay!! :) Adios Pine Brook!

Bitchiness and dirty pots

Yay! I just paid $258 on my credit card, which brings it to below $4,000. :) I need to find a new card though, or maybe just transfer it back to my other card cuz I'll have to start paying interest in March, and I'm just really enjoying this whole no interest thing too much. It's making it way easier to pay off.

So I know I just posted about Matthew like an hour ago, but whatever. Apparently I'm not quite done. So he's supposed to come by today after he gets off work. I can't decide if I want to be nice just to make it go easier, or if I want to be bitchy and petty (is that spelled right? it doesn't look right..) cuz that's how I'm feeling. I have already decided that if he wants to take Fuzzy he can catch her himself, I'm not helping.


I need to call about apartments. I'm having too much dancing though (thanks Loss Adjuster for introducing me to some fun music!)! I'm going to go meet up with Mom at the Burlington Coat Factory in a few minutes though. Really, what I need to do, more than anything else, is dishes. But I really don't want to. Especially cuz all the dirty ones are Matthew's. Like I said, I'm feeling petty and bitchy.

I think I owe Mom some money for texts though. I've been texting kinda a lot lately. Well, a lot for me. It's not like I'm Abby or anything. lol

At least I did laundry so I have cute clothes to wear when he comes over. :)

I've decided that Matthew is a jerk.

Grrs to Matthew! He just sent me the most condescending email ever, full of things like "I will have to get my computer back now, I'm sorry I held out as long as I could, I just honestly thought you would be out of there by now." Whatever. I guess that means he has a new place now though, which I guess is good. Or something.

Last night I thought I worked at 4:30 in the lounge, and accidentally got there way early cuz I hit all green lights, so I got there at 4, but actually I was closing and didn't clock on until 5:30, so I had to wait an hour and a half. I was just going to come back home or something, but there were some other servers there waiting for their ride/to clock on/to go out and get some drinks, so I just hung out and talked and whatnot, which was nice, until I realized that everyone who left did so without even saying bye or anything, which kinda pissed me off. Ok, I say everyone, I really just mean.... uh.... wow, my mind blanked on her name. Anyway, we were sitting talking for like an hour and then Kim was ready to go so she just got up and left. She even left her glass there on the table for me to pick up.

So grrs to her too!

I dunno, the more I think about all this mess with Matthew the more pissed off I get.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

I need a boy to flirt with.

Good morning! How are all of you doing? I'm good! Tired though, I didn't sleep well last night, which is weird, isn't alcohol supposed to help you sleep? Meh.

So me and Ryan just ended up going to Que Pasa for some margaritas and then back to my apartment to hang out until like 11:30. I kept calling Dustin to try to get him to come over too cuz Ryan has a girlfriend and it's just not as much fun to drunkenly flirt with guys who have girlfriends, but he was out playing pool and making money so he didn't come over, but he said he would tonight so I'll call him after work.

I think I've been drinking too much lately though. Wait, let me rephrase, I've been drinking way more in the past two weeks than I have in the past like 5 years, and I've been bad about making sure to drink enough water to counteract the alcohol, so I'm all dehydrated. I kinda didn't realize how much until I weighed myself this morning, and saw that I'm FOUR POUNDS lighter than I was before Christmas, and I've been eating a lot. lol. Needless to say, I've had two water bottles already and I'm feeling better. :)

And my pizza is almost done, yay!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Pizza should NOT take an hour to make!!

Last night sucked. A lot. We got totally slammed, which normally would be a good thing, but for some reason pizzas got WAY behind, so tickets were taking an average of 45 minutes. Ugh. That meant a lot of unhappy people, and a wait when there shouldn't have been, and a very slow table turnover time. So even though I had a totally full 6 table section for 4 hours, and even though my average ticket was between $50-100 I only did $650 in sales and walked with $81. And then, just to top it all off, some creep flashed one of our take out girls when she was bringing him his pizza. She (being unbelievably naive) thought that he might have just accidently had his pants unzipped and didn't even mention it until he'd already been gone for like 40 minutes, and then wasn't going to tell the managers, which I completely disagreed with, so when the regional manager (who got to witness the mess with the pizzas, not good) was leaving I told him he needed to go talk to her. So then they wouldn't let me walk to my car by myself (despite the fact that this had happened like 4 hours before I was leaving) so I had to wait for someone to walk me out, which always makes me feel silly, especially since I parked close last night cuz someone was talking up my normal parking space (along with 5 other spaces).

So THEN, I come home and the internet hadn't been working all day, and the lights in my room wouldn't turn on, even though I flipped every breaker like 4 times, so that was frustrating, so I decided to just go to bed cuz I was tired and it was like 10:30, so I lay down and the lights come back on by themselves. So I got up, turned them all off, and then finally got to sleep.


Now I need to go to my apartment manager's office to see if I have some geckos waiting for me (I shouldn't, but I need to double check) and to mention the lights to them, although there's not much they can do. And I need to call Matthew to tell him how much he needs to pay for rent, and then I think I'm going to call Ryan (now that he remembers who I am) and see if he wants to hang out tonight. I hope he does. I don't need a repeat of yesterday.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

I thought it was supposed to be a white Christmas?

On all the news stations all they've been talking about for the past few days is how much snow Tehachapi is supposed to get on Christmas.  Well where is it?  I stayed the night up here with my parents and there's no snow!  grrs!!!  At least there should be some at Rachel's.

Anyway.  It's a little weird to not have Matthew around during Christmas.  It's nice to not have to deal with his mother, but kinda weird to not be exchanging presents or anything.  *shrug*  I sent him a text saying Merry Christmas, but he didn't respond.

Umm...  yes.   Mom and Dad gave me $250 and some books on Portugal, awesome!!!  :)  And then a nice sweater, a calander, and a Princess Bride video game for my computer, lol.  And then in class I got a pound of Starbucks coffee from another student.  She brought enough for everyone to get a bag, which was really nice, cuz that's not cheap.  I mean, they're like $10 each and there's 20 students.  That's like $200!  I barely know her name!  It was very nice though.  Dustin (he sits behind me, he's the one who looks like Ian and the one I played pool with) kept stealing mine, so I was stealing his banana.  Yes, that's right, during anatomy we get so bored we resort to 7th grade and make banana jokes and steal stuff from each other.  And then he found out that I'm ticklish, which is very, very, very bad.


I think we're about to leave to go to Rachel's, so I guess that's it.  Merry Christmas everyone!  Hopefully it snows later (although not so much that we get stuck anywhere).  :)

Monday, December 22, 2008

Woohoo, I beat Terask on insane!

Yay, I finally beat neoquest II on insane difficulty! I won a 3 million np item for it. :)

In other news, I'm hungry. As always. Well, sorta. The last few days I'll be really hungry and take like two bites of food and totally lose my appetite. I had some oatmeal for breakfast this morning with Dad, and then a piece of pizza for lunch, but nothing sounds good. I think I might be getting sick or something. I dunno. I have had a headache for a couple days. Oh, I did buy some empanadas (well, she called them cookies, but whatever, I think she just said cookies cuz I'm white, lol) from some lady who knocked on my door. They're strawberry. 3 for a dollar. The inside of them wasn't all that great (kinda just tasted like jam), but the pastry part was very yummy.

So even though I only got 82 questions right according to the scantron, I got a 91% on my midterm, yay! Apparently the teacher realized that we hadn't gone over a couple of the questions, so he gave us the points if missed them, and the scantron missed a lot of questions. The guy behind me (Dustin) scored 67, but actually got 86%.

Anyway, I think I'm gonna go make a tomato sandwich and take an aspirin.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Once upon your dead body

I'm bored.

I don't go to work for another hour and a half. I was going to get up and go to church, but the stupid cats were playing all night long and didn't actually quite down until about 8, so when the alarm went off at 9:30 I just turned it off and went back to bed. Stupid cats. Matthew said he's going to come by to get his, but I don't know when he was planning on coming. He can't next week, at least, not if he wanted me to be here (and I kinda want to be here cuz he wants to split up some of the kitchen stuff and I'd like to be there for that, not that he'd screw me or anything (this is Matthew we're talking about) but still) cuz I'm busy all week. Tomorrow Dad's coming by to look at the apartment and buy me food (he might claim to have different reasons to come to town, but I know that really it's just about buying me food), Tuesday I have school all day, then I get my geckos, then I go to work, Wed I'm going up to Tehachapi for clam chowder (again, it's all about the food), Thursday he'll be stuck with hs family (HA!) and Friday... well, I'll just be getting back into town, and then I have to go to work. So that's just not gonna work.


I am realizing now that I have very little time for homework next week. I don't have class on Wed or Thursday, but I do on Mon and Tuesday, so I should probably do everything I can tonight.

That's the responsible thing to do anyway.

And, as we all know, I would never dream of being irresponsible.


I guess that's about it. I really am a very boring person. Well, I lead a boring life anyway. I think I'm pretty interesting, I'm just too lazy to ever actually do anything blog worthy. Which doesn't stop me from blogging, mind you. It just means that I never have anything meaningful to say.


Friday, December 19, 2008

awkwardity (I can make up words), loud bass, and nonexpired milk

I feel very accomplished today. I tend to put off chores until the very last minute (why is the "t" and the "y" button sticking? That's really annoying) so today, it is unfortunately the last minute. I called about another apartment (I decided that the one I looked at yesterday was just too small for how much they were charging) and liked it much better, so I went ahead and applied for it. It's a 2 bedroom, 1 bath with a garage and hookups that's off of Ming and Akers, so still in my general neighborhood, but it's not a huge complex, which is nice. The only bad thing about it was that when I went to look at it the downstairs were playing some rap so loudly, and with the bass turned up so high that I could understand every word they were saying while inside the apartment (it's upstairs), and I could feel the floor vibrating through my feet. I asked them about that and they said they'd take care of it though, so that's good. And anytime they do it while I am living there (if I do move there) just call them and they'll send someone by to have them turn it down.

So that's good. Hopefully. I really hate my current apartment. Between the flooding, the roaches and the pot smoking 8 year olds I really feel like it's time for a new place.

Besides, it's weird living somewhere that you used to live with your ex, but he's gone now. Kinda weird. It'd take way too long before I stopped thinking of the other room as "Matthew's room."

Then after I did that Mom called and we went to Mama Roomba's where I had a fabulous Cuban pork sandwich and some sweet potato fries. Yummy. :) Of course, since I ate it with 2 cups of coffee there was no way I could actually finish it, so I have a half a sandwich to eat tonight when I get off work, unless I end up going to a party at some girl's house from school. Well, I guess it's actually her ex's house, where she doesn't live anymore, and he's not invited, so she's kicking him out? Or something? It all sounded very strange, but whatever. She turned 21 on Thursday, which was fun, cuz that was when we had a midterm and someone brought cake for her, so we got to take our test while eating yummy chocolate cake. woohoo!! :)

I didn't do quite as well on my midterms as I'd hoped, 87 on one and 82 on the other, but I suppose that's still ok.

At least I passed.

And I did way better on the second on that the smart guy behind me (Ian's twin) did.

Not that I'd gloat or anything.


And THEN, after food we went to Goodwill to kill some time before Mom had to go back to jury duty, and then I went to the bank to make sure I had money in there so I could go grocery shopping, which I did, but then I got home I realized I had no counter space or anything, so I had to do some dishes and take out the trash.

And now I"m gonna take a shower and then I'll go to work.

And then maybe to a party.

But maybe not.

I dunno. A bunch of drunk 20 year olds doesn't really interest me much.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


Oh man, this is wonderful. I got a new space heater for my room, and, unlike my last one, it actually works. It's blowing lovely warm air all over me. Mmmm......

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

*Bangs head into wall*

So the circuit breaker tripped last night for the dining room/living room and wouldn't go back on until after he switched the main breaker, and then the breaker for that area. Very frustrating. Of course, still not nearly as frustrating as the fact that my bedroom floor is, once again, soaking wet. It's not as bad as it was last time, so I'm not even mentioning it, but I do have a appointment to see a condo tomorrow. It's in kinda a crappy location (basically it's behind SJVH) but it's cheap(ish), has a cool tree in front (I like trees dammit!) and has laundry hookups as well as a fenced yard. So hopefully that works.

In other news, having very little food, very little money, and even less time is forcing me to get creative with what I eat, but I did manage to make some pretty good breakfast burritos. yummy. :)

Oh, and I hate the program director at school. Well, ok, so I don't hate her, I just hate her tests. They're totally unfair. And I'm not a person who normally whines about that kind of thing. But when you have the same question repeated three times on a midterm ad expect different answers each time, that's not fair. When you ask a question that has two different answers depending on what book you are reading, and then you give both answers as choices, that's not fair. When you ask a question that could mean two different things, that's not fair. I know the material. I do. But I am sure that I only got a C on the midterm because she sets it up so people will fail. The average on the tests that she writes is a full two letter grades lower than the tests that she just took out of the book. Obviously there is something wrong there.


Whatever though, I'm in this program to learn the information so I can get certified, and the people who write the tests that I've been getting all A's on are the same people who write the certifciation exam, so I should be good.

Now let's hope I can find a better apartment.

Monday, December 15, 2008


I came home from work last night to find what looked like dirt spread all over the floor in the living room. WTF? I thought maybe the apartment people had been in to see if I flooded, or maybe someone broke in and they had really dirty feet or something? But then I looked closer and saw that it wasn't dirt, it was bits of dried leaves. Hmmm.... Then I noticed how freaked out the cats looked. They were all hanging out in the living room with wide eyes and poofy tails. And that's when I solved the mystery.


I guess when I mailed a check a few days ago I didn't close the drawer all the way, and the same drawer that has the envelopes also has the catnip, and they got it out. Needless to say I figured I'd better clean it up before they all OD. :)

Silly kitties.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Margaritas, beer, and pool= a good time for all

It is a sign of how seldomly that I drink that one margarita and two small beers got me this drunk, but well, they did. I'm feeling much more sober now, which is why I'm able to write this.


I hung out with some people from school today. It was a lot of fun. We played some pool, and hung out here for a bit (despite the fact that one of them, Dustin, is allergic to cats, oops) and all in all, I had a fun time. And since Matthew did move out today, it was nice to spend my first night of living by myself (after 3 years) hanging out with friends, instead of actually being by myself. I definitely think that they were only humoring me towards the end, but it was still nice. And it's nice to know that they were willing to do that, although I suspect that that's cuz they totally have a crush on each other. I'll post some of the pics I got of them later. Totally cute.

But now, it's midnight and I"m sleepy, so I'm going to bed. Night!!

Friday, December 12, 2008

I'm so proud of myself

So I know you were all expecting me to like, shut down, or at least be depressed, or something, but I'm not! Quite the opposite in fact. Tonight after work I went and hung out with everyone at the Elephant Bar, something they do almost every night, and something I've never had the courage to do (it's stupid, I know, but I'm too afraid to go somewhere with someone unless specifically invited, so even though I've always known that it would be totally cool if I went to EB with everyone, since I've never actually had someone say "Hey Susannah, wanna go next door after work?" I never have. When I showed up tonight everyone was all excited. :) )and tomorrow night I'm hanging out with someone from school. This is the first time I've hung out with people from work since John Paul, and the first time I've hung out with people from school since.... umm.... Nick... like 4 years ago....

So yay!!

In more sad news, I managed to cut my hand, right in between my fingers with the lid on the trash can at work today. It's one of those swingy triangle lids and the corners are sharp! It hurt, but then the antiseptic stuff that I sprayed on it was also a pain reliever, so it doesn't hurt anymore, but cuts there tend to take FOREVER to heal, and I'm not looking forward to trying to scrub in with it.

But that's ok.

Umm.... let's see... Matthew is staying with his sister. Well, sorta. He started moving his stuff over there today, but he didn't finish apparently, cuz he just walked in. :) He said that if I can't find an apartment by the end of the month and have to stay here longer he'll pay his half of next month's rent too, which was nice, but kinda unnecessary. I mean, why should he pay when he's not living here? On the other hand, he broke up with me and said that living with me makes him suicidal, so I dunno.

I guess that's about it for now. :)

I'm still all proud for actually making an effort to make friends. Yay!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Sasha is crazy

I'm sitting on my bed with the laptop on my lap (weird place for it, I know) wearing my sweatshirt (you all know the one, it's that thing that I wear every day during winter for the past 7 years) and Sasha comes up and tries to get into my pocket. Now, I know she's a small cat (although way bigger than Eek), but there's no way she's gonna fit in my sweatshirt pocket. She did successfully get her head into it, but not the rest of her body. Not that she's gonna let a little thing like that stop her. She laid down with her entire body sticking out, and her paws underneath my sweatshirt, and promptly started purring.

Matthew is so gonna miss her.


He did buy me a pumpkin pie milkshake though. It was yummy.

Turtle poo is stinky.

So Matthew's insisting that he didn't break up with me. All he did was tell me that A-I am incapable of changing, B-He is incapable of changing, and C-Living like this makes him suicidal. But that doesn't mean he wants to break up! Apparently what he wants is to move into different apartments and stay together, which I told him I didn't want to do. So then I asked him point blank if he wants to stay together and stay living together, or move into different places and break up. There's only two choices. He just sat there quietly for about 2o mins and then walked out of the room.

So that's pretty much what's going on there. We're not really talking to each other much. Like, he asked me how Fuzzy was doing without as much fur (he cut a bunch off a few days ago cuz she was getting matted) and... umm... Actually that's about it. Needless to say we don't have much of a relationship right now, but we're not fighting... so that's good I guess. Chris came over today to help me move my bed back into my room cuz it was still in the living room, which was just annoying. Matthew's in his room. Obviously.

Hmm... Now that my APMT class (Anatomy and Physiology and Medical Terminology) has finished with the MT part we're getting a ton of homework, so that's keeping me busy. Yesterday we were assigned 25 key terms to define, and today we were assigned another 50 or so, along with several work sheets, which are all due on Monday. And I still have my other 2 classes. So all in all I have at least two hours of homework every night, or an entire day of homework if I put it off until Sunday, which I'm trying not to do, which is easier since this is Matthew's computer and he does actually need it sometimes, which means that sometimes I have no computer at all, like today when I didn't have one for like 3 hours, so I got caught up on some homework (I still have a few hours more) and fed all my animals (even the snake!) and cleaned out the turtle tank. :)

I've called about some apartments, but haven't filled out any applications yet, which I know will make some of you annoyed (Hi Mom!) but, well, um..... I don't really have any good excuses. I mean, yeah, I've got hw and all, and all the drama with Matthew, but that is all stuff that I could do during the evening and then still have time to look for apartments during the day. What can I say, I'm lazy. And if you ask Matthew, that's never going to change.

Oh, and to answer your question, I'm ok. Which is kinda weird, but I'm honestly not depressed or all that upset or anything. We'd been having a lot of problems lately and it kinda got to the point where I just didn't really care anymore and it's not like this was unexpected anyway.


Tuesday, December 9, 2008


Hmm. I think Matthew might have broken up with me last night. That kinda sucks.

Monday, December 8, 2008

What the fuck?

So apparently is totally unacceptable for me to accidentally go into Matthew's email, but is totally ok for him to intentionally log into mine and then read my emails after yelling at me for reading his. Asswipe.

Ok, well, no, apparently it wasn't ok for him to do that. But he was interested in how much the geckos cost. It wasn't ok, but he was interested! I mean, he didn't yell at me for reading his, why am I yelling at him?

Whatever. We just need to move and each get our own computers set up. That should help.


New geckos!!

So today I ordered a couple new viper geckos to replace the ones that the kitties killed. I like viper geckos dammit! And they're the only species I've successfully bred. So successfully in fact, that another egg hatched today! It's the last one. But it's a little bigger than the other one when it hatched, which is a good sign. It looks very healthy, so yay! I went from one adult female and a juvie (who I know now is female, apparently they're sexable at 3 months) to one adult female, one adult male, 3 uknown babies, and one 4 month old female. :) Too fun! I'll get some pics when the new ones arrive.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

I'm so boring.

I'm bored.

My computer still isn't set up, which is a problem, because I don't know most of my logins to all my various sites that I use. So I'm sorta without anything to do. I mean, yes, I suppose I could do some homework or something constructive, but I don't particularly feel like it.

I got a $137 check for the lawsuit against OG, woohoo! :) Considering I don't think I was really cheated out of anything, and all I had to do was sign 2 papers and send in two letters, it's a pretty good deal. And I need the money too, cuz not only do I still need a new apartment, and a new car, but I got the ok from school to miss a couple weeks so I can go to Portugual! Yay!!! :)

I looked at a tank at someone's house today. Unfortunately, it didn't have the right kind of lid, and it's just not worth the trouble. It would've worked for my frogs, and I would've loved to buy it (it was a corner tank, very nice dimensions for building tropical frog tanks, and those usually run at about $350-$500 new, and this one was $85 with the stand included) but Matthew would've thrown a fit and pointed that we really don't have room for a big tank that I don't actually need, especially when I'll still have to buy a big tank that I do need. So I passed. :(

grrs. So now that I really have nothing else to do anyway, Matthew's stealing his laptop.

So I guess this is it.


Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Hypothetical situations, gross fingernails, and hypothetical sitations. Really. Hypothetical.

So my apartment flooded. We spent a night at the Hilton, which was fun. Kinda. Matthew still managed to be late, which is sorta hilarious. They dried the carpet, which was a nice first step, but we had to wait until today before they could clean it. Unfortunately, the mold is more in the walls and everything else than it is in the carpet, so our bedroom still smells REALLY bad (seriously, the turtles have nothing on 30 year old flooded mildew walls) so we're still sleeping in the living room. It makes it kinda tricky when he leaves for work at 6:30 and I'm still in bed. My computer is still in pieces, so I'm using Matthew's laptop. Oh, and speaking of which, let's just say, hypothetically, that you're apartment/house flooded and you have to use your significant other's computer. So you get on it to check your email, which happens to use the same site as his, so when you click on, for example, gmail, it logs him in automatically. Now, let's say, just for pretend, that you happened to notice an email from myspace that says "New message from *insert your sig. other's ex's name*" Wouldn't you click on it? And then, when you saw that it was an invitation to lunch, wouldn't you be interested in the rest of the SEVENTEEN MESSAGES OVER TWO MONTHS THAT HE NEVER TOLD YOU ABOUT? I mean, ok, so he wasn't cheating on me or anything, but I am still adamant that I didn't do anything wrong; all I did was the same thing that anyone would've done.

Hypothetically of course.

Cuz, it's not like any of this happened or anything.


In other news, news that actually happened, my fingernail is coming off. It kinda hurts. But they let me slide with the hole scraping under the nails thing during lab today, so that was nice. And work feels bad for me, so they've been buying my dinner. Not cuz of the nail, cuz of the flooded apartment. Umm.... I have all A's in my classes. Which I pretty much knew anyway, but I got the actualy percents yesterday. Yay for me.

Ummm..... We looked at apartments today, but that's always tricky and complicated when you're dating a crazy man. He whined that he didn't like any of the apartments that I had circled, expect the one that was already rented and wouldn't have another opening until Jan, so then I told him to find one, and then he whined about how he hates that he has to do all the work. grrs. I'm getting way better at managing his craziness though, so I was able to pause, take a breath, and come up with an alternative solution. Oddly enough, once I offer to do it exactly his way, he relaxes about it a lot, and then we can just do it the easy way. Which probably doesn't make any sense... I mean, ok, like he didn't even want to look at any of them because he thought the neighborhood might be bad, or it was too expensive, or whatever, but when I volunteered to call first, find out everything I can from them, go online to google street view (an awesome thing btw) so we can see what they look like, and even volunteered to make appointments that I had no intention of keeping, he was like "well, ok, we could just drive by this one and if it looks ok just go up to the office to talk to them," which was exactly what I trying to do in the first place.

There's a lot of reverse psychology that goes on when dealing with Matthew.

I guess that's about it. We're just doing what we can to deal with the current living situation, Matthew's trying to find a new job, I'm working and going to school. Life.

Monday, November 24, 2008

aw, Dakota said goodbye!

So last night I dreamt that I was in bed and Dakota came to say goodbye. First he flung his paw onto my arm and I scratched behind his ears, and then he curled up with me for a few minutes before giving me one last woowoo and walked out with his tail held high. It was very sweet. And kinda sad. :(

Saturday, November 22, 2008

I hate housework. Anyone want some free fish?

I hear there's an ad for a free 50 gallon tank in the Tehachapi paper, yay! I called her, but she didn't answer. Hopefully she does. Now, the tank does have fish in it, which is a minor problem, but I'm sure I can find them homes. I hope I can. I don't want a 50 gallon fish tank. No, no, no! That's one of those things that sounds like it's totally easy. I mean, it's already set up, there's already fish in it, all I'd have to do is toss some food in once in awhile, right?

If only it were so.

My mantella laid some eggs, yay! But I can't find them. Which is kinda tricky. I'll wait another week or so (until the eggs are ready to come out of the tank) and then I'll tear it apart and get them. I'm pretty sure she laid them underneath a log that I have in there. They've dug several holes under it.

umm... I need to wrap Lacey's present. It's still in a Target bag.

Hmm... Rachel said she could bring me the tank (if I get it) but I'll have to have somewhere to put it. I guess I should wrap the present and then clean for the next couple of hours.

Ugh. I dont wanna clean!!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Pics of my black Kingsnake!

Isn't (s)he so pretty!! :)

Ignore all the crap in the background. And, um, the crap on the wood. ;)

See, he's huge now! Three feet long! He's sure pretty though.

Pics of my gravid pulchra

I got some pics of my very fat female mantella pulchra. The pics don't really show off the coppery color of her head, or the bright orange flash marks, but they definitely show how gravid she is. :)

Here's the side view-

And the top view. In this one her head is sorta in the shadow, but you can see how round her belly is.


Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Mushrooms are grand fun!

There's a mushroom growing in my pulchra tank! lookie!

It's growing against the glass in the corner, so the only way for me to take a pic is through the glass, which doesn't make for a great pic, but that's ok. The fun thing is that while I was taking that pic the female frog hopped out from her hiding space. And why is that fun? Well, you may remember that the pulchras are the ones who've been bugging me with their constant calling. And this female is FAT! Like, HUGE! GINORMOUS!!! So in another day or so she'll be all skinny again and there'll be some eggs in the tank. Unfortunately, the first pics I took I apparently didn't have the CF card in my camera (so it didn't save them) and the second ones the flash was blocked by the tank lid. The really tricky thing though is that there's only like 2 places in that tank that I can get to, so if she lays them anywhere else (which she probably will because the spots that I can get to aren't exactly prime laying spots) so I might have to tear apart the the tank a little.

I am really pissed that I managed to screw up the pics so much. grrs.

I'd take some more, but I've already bugged her enough.

Hm, so let's see. Mom and I went shopping yesterday. It was fun. :) I got a new purse, and some nice grown up clothes, which is always good. lol

and... umm.... school is school. Lab is always fun though. Except that today after I scrubbed I had to wait forever before I could put on my gown and gloves, which meant that for about 15 minutes I was standing holding my arms and hands up, which is harder than it sounds.

And I didn't sleep at all the night before, and then last night Matthew was playing on the computer and keeping me up. Getting up this morning at 6 was very difficult.

That's pretty much it. We're starting to get a bit busier at work, so that's good. I'm making a bit more money. I want to go to Portugal, and for that I'll need money. I'll also need to talk school into letting me take my finals at least a week early. I asked the program director about it today, but she wasn't sure. She said that she's never had someone ask to take it that early (a week is a lot in an accelerated program) and that I'd need to talk to the dean, but that's it's definetly good that I'm doing this early, so maybe. I figure after we talk about it on Thanksgiving and I have definitive dates I'll make an appointment with the dean. If he says no then I wont get to go. :( I really want to go! Although, I must admit I don't have a huge interest in Portugal itself, I just want to get out of Bakersfield. Out of CA. Out of the US! That could be that I don't know much about it though.


I'm eating ginger snaps.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

no furry tail for Cassie

So I'm kinda worried about Cassie. In the last couple of weeks I've noticed her tail didn't seem to be as poofy as it was. I've pointed it out to Matthew, but he never really paid attention, until I finally made him look today, and he was surprised. You know how she used to have a super thick, poofy tail? Not anymore. Now the fur is very thin. It's weird, she's not losing fur anywhere else, and the skin on her tail isn't at all irritated, it's just not there anymore. I tried to look it up online, but didn't really find anything. Everything that I found were all skin problems, so the skin would be red, or have a rash, or be dry or something, and it's not! Her skin looks fine! She just doesn't have much fur! There's not even a real bald spot. So I dunno. I'll keep an eye on it, but if it doesn't get better soon (although, how would it, if I'm not doing anything about it?) I'll take her to the vet. Stupid expensive vet. He's gonna yell at us for not being on top of their vaccinations (none of them have gotten any in over a year), and not giving them any flea medication (which we stopped because the kind he said we needed (and we agreed) is only available by prescription, and with 4 cats that's a couple hundred dollars every 3 months). I don't wanna feel guilty dammit!


So if anyone knows why a cats fur would suddenly be thinning, please let me know.

Thank you.

And, of course, I still need that tank.

At least my frogs are happy. I actually saw two of them (two species I mean, the pulchras and the expectatas, so 4 frogs total) in amplexus today, which was kinda cool. They're being so noisy that we can hear them from outside, but they're only calling during the day, so it's ok. I mean, our neighbors used to have a bird that wouldn't shut up at any time of the day/night. A little light frog calling during the day is way better.


I have to go to school on Friday cuz our lab was supposed to be on Tuesday, but we didn't have school that day, so that kinda sucks.

Stupid fake holidays.

Matthew took me to Mama Toscas last night. It was very nice. :) Certainly not something to do every day, or week, or even month, but nice as an occasional treat. I got a nice glass of wine, Matthew actually liked the pork chops, it was nice. And yummy. I got some chicken covered with Swiss cheese and pancietta (and yeah, I know that's spelled wrong, but whatever, I don't know Italian). We even got all dressed up. Matthew looked very nice in his black pants, black shirt, and silver tie. He took a couple pics on his cell phone, but he hasn't sent them to me yet, so I can't put them up. I think I need to make him do that....

In fact, I might have to go bug him about it now!

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Aw crap, anyone wanna give me a 50 gallon tank?

So for the first time in quite awhile my snake shed all in one piece. Which means that I was actually able to accurately measure how big he is. 3 feet. My poor snake is 3 feet long and stuck in a 20 gallon tank. Which means that he can't spread out all the way, which means that he's very susceptible to a respiratory infection. Unfortunately, I live in Bakersfield, where people believe in charging twice retail for their used tanks. ugh. I mean, I guess I can sorta afford a new tank at retail, but I was really looking to spend less than $100 on it. grrs.

In other animal related news, my pulchra wont stop calling, which is cool, cuz that means that they might actually lay some eggs, but there's no way I could get eggs out of that tank. So I don't know what to do. Very tricksy.

Last night at work we had a million servers on, so I had a tiny section, so even though I was closing on a Friday night I only made $80.

That wont even cover my damn tank!


But other than that I'm good. :) How are you? Do you happen to have a large, empty fish tank lying around that you wanna give me?

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Lots of homework, not a lot of free time, and cold, hard cash

I figured out that I'm actually at school between 18 and 19 hours a week. Not terribly bad. And then I have at least an hour of homework every night, sometimes more, so we'll say that's like 27 hours a week doing school related stuff. Then of course, there's the 25 hours I work, and since I usually get there 20 mins early and hang out for a bit afterwards that goes up to 28 hours a week at work. So now we're at 55 hours a week where my time is not my own. I know, that's not really even all that much, but see, a few months ago, I didn't have ANYTHING going on. The whole getting up at 6 to go to school until 2:30 and then rushing home and going to work where I close so I'm there until 11 and then trying to get some homework done before I have to go to school again thing is just not fun.

I don't know how people do this with kids.


I think I'm just too much of a wimp.


So aside from how busy I've felt, school is going well. I like almost everyone in my class. It's not difficult yet, but it's a lot of memorizing stuff that I never thought I'd need to know. I also discovered that I suck at opening sterile "pill pouches." Of the 8 or so that I opened I only managed to get 3 on the table, and I didn't do a very good job on those three, but that's ok. I'll have the next 15 months to practice. :) We have daily quizzes in all my classes and I've done well on all of those, which isn't saying much, cuz like I said, it's not hard yet, although some people for some reason aren't doing so well. I think it's just cuz they're not used to actually having to study. It's amazing, the same people who complain that the flash cards are useless and not at all helpful so they wont do them are the same who aren't doing well on the quizzes (we correct each other's papers, so we all kinda know how everyone else is doing).

Work is going pretty well too. It seems to be picking up a little, which is nice. I haven't walked with less than $50 in awhile, and I did manage to save $500 this month, so yay!

Umm... let's see..... I haven't really been playing with clay too much. Which is too bad.

Matthew is doing well. He's getting a business license for computer repairs so he can fix the computers at work and get paid by Hilton (this was something his managers insisted he do) so that's cool, cuz they'll pay him a lot. He's also done a lot of work for people we know lately and has made some pretty decent money, so yay!

All in all, life is going pretty well I suppose. I wasn't the least bit surprised by the election results, although I do wish Prop 8 hadn't passed. I know there are those who were for it, but I'm not. It is really nice to be able to drive through the Stockdale/New Stine intersection with a gazillion people waving signs.

And with that I must be off. Class in 30 mins. :)

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Crazy week, and it's only half over

EDIT-Looking for the SJVC infozone portal to access email and such?  Go to  Make sure to put ed/ before your user name.  So, if your name is John Smith and you were born on July 4th, 1980, your user name is smjo(your student ID number), and your password is js198007 

And returning to my blog.....

I started school this week.


It's going well enough I guess, but it's certainly keeping me busy. Monday and Wed I'm in class from 10-2:40, with a 20 min break in between, Tuesday I go in at 7:15 and don't get out until 2:40, this time with 2 30 min breaks, and Thursday I get to sleep in, I only have one class from 12:30-2:40. All that isn't terrible. I mean, yeah, that's a lot of time spent in class, but that's alright, I've had worse. The problem is the homework. The first night I spent 3 hours on homework, the second (Tues) I could only work for 2 hours cuz I also had to go to work, and by the time I got home at 9 I was exhausted from being up since 6 am so I wasn't able to do as much. Tonight I've been doing homework for an hour or so, but I needed to take a break. :) Yay for breaks! Luckily most of the homework I was assigned today isn't due until Monday, so that's good. Of course, since I have so many days to do it they gave us more to do, so yeah.

I got 100% on my first quiz though! yay....


I feel bad cuz I meant to call Carina on her birthday, but by the time I had time to call it was like 11 and I was tired and knew I had to get up early.

Also, I don't get why schools must make everything difficult. Remember how I was complaining about having to use my school email? Wait... did I complain about that? I think I did...


So stupid school email. Fine, whatever, I'll try to check it every so often. So I go to check it today. Hmm.... where is the link to my email? It is not (as you may have believed) on the SJVC website. It is also not to be found by searching for "SJVC student email" or anything likewise easy. Somehow Matthew stumbled across a help page somewhere and I happened to see it and see that it said "infozone" and then remembered that that's what the address was at school (I remembered it had info in it, but not the zone part) and was finally able to get to it. All in all, it took me about 30 mins to login to my email account, only to see that the email that my teacher had told us was there and was very important to read was just a notice that another teacher had lost a wedding ring, which I already knew cuz I was there when she lost it. Well, I mean I was there when she realized she lost it. Obviously we don't know where she was when she lost it or it wouldn't be lost.

My point is, the people who are in charge of this kind of thing should all be fired. Every single one of them. Because I have problems like this EVERY SINGLE TIME I try to access a school or work website. It's irritating. Infuriating. And someone needs to lose their job over it.

Other than that though, I like my classes! I have Medical Terminology (super easy since I already took it), Intro to Surgical Tech, Intro to Surgical Procedures, and my lab class. The lab and surgical procedures are the best. I learned how to put on a table cloth (ok, a "back table cover") and how to open towels without touching the outside of the package, and then I got to throw them on the table, which is always fun, and we learned about Metzenbaum scissors and Mayo stands and a whole bunch of stuff. Good times.

But now, alas, I must do more homework.


Friday, October 24, 2008

I'm giving up on Sonic.

I like Sonic. At least, I used to. But the last several times I've been there I've been very disappointed. The Cherry Limeade's are good, but that's about it. Tonight was the last straw. Here's how it went-
"Hi, welcome to Sonic, can I take your order?"
Matthew- "Yeah, we'll get a number 6 (for me, it's a Chicken Toaster Club, normally comes with fried chicken) with grilled chicken..."
"Ok what else can I get?"
"Um... that was with a Cherry Limeade, and can I also get a large number 8 with tater tots and Cherry Limeade"
"What was that?"
"A number 6 with grilled chicken and a Cherry Limeade, and a large number 8 with tater tots and a Cherry Limeade."
"Ok, *she repeats all that* Your total is $13.15"

We wait a few minutes and it comes out.
"Alright, I've got a number 6 and a number 8, that'll be $13.60"

Oh, ok, maybe we heard the total wrong? I mean, it's possible that we both heard the same wrong number, right? So while Matthew is paying I look in the bag.

uh, wait, no, this isn't right. It's a number 5 (a grilled chicken sandwich), fries and Matthew's chicken wrap, but no tater tots.

When she brings us ketchup we tell her that it's the wrong sandwich and that we didn't get the tater tots. She apologizes, repeats back what we need, and goes to get it. Meanwhile, I'm eating my fries, which were rubbery, had no salt, and obviously were made in old oil, and a guy comes out- "Here ya go" throws a bag of food at us, and walks away before we can even open the bag. My sandwich is right, but there's no tater tots.

So we push the button and tell them that we still don't have the tater tots.

The first girl comes back out looking very embaressed and apologizes and asks if there's anything else we need. We don't, we've got out food so we're ok. (At this point I wasn't even going to bother complaining about the crappy fries)

We finish and order dessert. A banana split with nuts and a chocolate cream pie shake. The girl never asks what size, just gives us a total. It comes out, and there's no nuts on my banana split.

So! Let's recap. When ordering the girl never asked what we'd like to drink with our combos (strike one), it came out with the wrong sandwich, even though the correct one was repeated back to us (strike 2), it took asking for the tater tots TWICE after they'd forgotten them (strikes 3 and 4), she never asked what size shake we wanted (strike 5) and my banana split didn't have nuts on it (strike 6). Oh, and the fries were bad (strike 7).

I mean, seriously, how many ways can you fuck up an order at a fast food place? If I messed up this much at my work we would have comped the food, offered the dessert for free, and probably given them a gift card. And the manager would have come out personally to apologize.

Sadly, there's no way to send in an online complaint, the only way is to call the toll free number from their website, which I'm too lazy to do.


Did I mention that this cost us over $20? GRRS!!

My back still hurts dammit

So I had my orientation at SJVC today. (Completely unrelated side note, but I really think I need to come up with a new way to start my posts. They all seem to start with "So I... " which must get tiring to read. Anyway.) It went pretty well I guess. They do that really obnoxious thing where they communicate to the students a lot via email, but will only email your school address. Does that annoy anyone else? I don't want to have to check a separate email address every day so I can find out that I have a quiz the next day or (as was the case for one student who didn't check her email) I'm having a ceremony to honor me because I'm so wonderful, but apparently I'm not good enough to call (I guess they told her through email that it was coming up, but she never checked it, so she never showed up). I've had a few teachers throughout the years who have actually asked me for my email that I use and then used that one to create their mailing list, and that worked way better. People actually got their emails that way.

It's just stupid. And annoying.


We got 80 million books. So many, in fact, that they didnt fit in the giant wheelie "back packs" that they gave us. Granted, included in there was a dictionary, a medical dictionary, a theasurous, a pocket guide to a book that they also gave us the big version of, and 3 books that we wont need for the next 30 weeks, but still. Just looking at them made my back hurt. Luckily I decided to drive, because otherwise I would've had to walk home, get my car, and drive back. They're still all sitting in my car because it took lying down for 3 hours for my back to stop hurting after carrying them to my car from the school, and I don't feel like doing that again. I think I'll make Matthew carry them in.

I also bought some books from Border's today. I think I'm going to return one of them though. It covers all the same stuff as the other one, only in a more ... umm... less advanced way, so I figure I'll just stick with the other one. I mean, the stuff in there is cute, but I'm not necessarily looking for how to do cute, and I think I can figure out how to roll a ball, stick two black pins in it for eyes, and then draw a half circle for a smile without having to spend $23 on a book telling me how to do that. The other one though, looks really amazingly helpful. It shows exactly what to do to make every part of the body (well, every PG 13 part), even including different how to make different races and ages and all that, which is kinda tricky, and good to know. Of course, it also makes it look super easy, which I doubt it is, but that's ok. It'll be fun to play with.

Hey look! Someone from Cookeville came to my blog! I used to live there! nifty.

I guess that's about it. Hmm... I think I should probably feed my snake. I'm gonna go do that now, yippie!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Bad backs, fairy hands, and Brita water filters

I feel bad, I was supposed to babysit Alex tonight, but my back has been killing me. I've tried taking IB Profen (thank God I'm not allergic), aspirin, and even codiene, but nothing has helped. Well, laying down perfectly still works, but the moment I sit up or move it starts hurting again. Needless to say, even thinking about picking up a toddler hurts, so I called and canceled. Luckily she found someone else. It's annoying. If it doesn't feel better soon I'm going to have work pay for me to go to the doctor. I'm just assuming that it's work related.

Tomorrow I have orientation at SJVC at 8:30. I have to show up all dressed in scrubs and whatnot. I was always planning on walking, but with my back I really don't know if that's the best idea. At 8:30 it should be nice and cool too. I dunno. We'll just have to see how it goes.

I ordered some sculpting books at Borders. I'm not sure that I'm going to buy them, but I want to at least look them over.

I finally convinced Matthew to try using a water filter instead of buying so much bottles. I don't know that he'll use it much, but I am. I got the pitcher kind cuz those seem to taste better. I set it up yesterday and have already had to refil it three times. :) Yay for drinking lots of water and saving the environment from wasteful plastic bottles and whatever!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Matthew's secret allergies

So apparently Matthew is allergic to IB Profen. Last time he took some a month or so ago his hands and feet got all itchy. Last night he took some again (forgetting about the previous time) and not only did his hands and feet get itchy, but he also developed hives all over his body, and his face got kinda swollen. And apparently if you're allergic to IB Profen you're way more likely to become allergic to aspirin, so you can't take either. So he's stuck with tylenol. Poor boy.

Hmm... I totally thought I had more to write about, but I can't think of anything else, so this is it.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Polymer clay elf heads!

Looky what I did!!

This was my first attempt-

Ok, ignoring the creepy tin foil eyes, I think I did pretty good. I mean, come on, it was my very first try ever!! Matthew thinks it looks like a guy from World of Warcraft.

But then, I tried again!

Way better, right? This time I found some red beads for the eyes, which work better, but even without that, way better! It actually looks like a person, not a misshapen lump of clay!

Lets see what they look like next to each other!

So yes, that is what I did last night. See, me and Matthew went to Chili's, but they had a long wait, so we killed some time by going to Aaron's Brothers and I bought some cheapo polymer clay (even if I wanted to, which I don't, cuz these are just practice, I can't bake these or harden them in any way) and some tools cuz they were all half off, so it was only $4 and then when we got home I made those! I know, they're far from perfect, and really, they're not very good anyway, but it was the first time I ever tried something like that and they turned out better than I expected. They also took like an hour and a half each. So now I need to go buy some wire so I can make bodies! Yay!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Credit Score

Woohoo, apparently my credit score is 778. Matthew is mad cuz mine is higher than his. Ha! :P He found some site that not only gives you a free credit report (lots of places do that), but actually tells you your number, and gives you a budget and all that. According to that I have about $300 a month in extra income. I don't know about that though, cuz I was just guessing on a lot of the numbers. Really, what I need to do is spend a month saving receipts and whatnot and figure out how much I'm actually spending on my pets, dining out, etc per month. I'm not very good at that, but it seems like I'm making too much money to have no savings and almost $5,000 in credit card debt, so maybe I'd better start getting good at it. Especially since I'm about to have a lot more debt. Which is kinda scary, but I figure having education debt is totally different than credit card debt, so it's ok. Or something.

I'm just happy I have a good score! :)

Mmmmm... leftover tofu pad thai....

So I keep meaning to call Dad to tell him to come down on Sat and buy a car cuz I have the day off, and would really like a car, but I keep forgetting. Seriously? How could I be forgetting to get a new car? *sighs* I think it's just cuz the times when it's more convenient for me to call him, he's not there, and then the times when I'm busiest is when he's home. It's all vey tricky people. So, if any of you talk to him, tell him that Susie wants him to come down and buy a new car. K? K. Thanks muchly.

In other news, I start SJVC soon, but I still don't have an actual schedule, and the papers that I got say something like "Every new student has to go to orientation" and I have no idea when that is. I think I need to call my admissions chick and ask her what's up. Maybe the 27th isn't my first day of school school, maybe it's my orientation to my first day of school? I dunno, but if I need to request a day off of work then I need to know what day that is!! It's just weird cuz they're usually so on top of things when it comes to calling me.

I'm also totally freaking out about starting school again. I do this every single time I start school again, and considering how many times I've stopped school you'd think I'd be used to it by now, but no, I'm just as nervous as ever. grrs.

And I need to buy some surgical clogs. You know, those ginormous plastic shoes? Yeah, I have to wear those. The kind without holes. At least I can wear any color I want. And I'm kinda thinking I might want to wear two different colors. Like, buy a purple pair and a green pair and wear one of each. This whole khaki scrubs thing just annoys me. Same thing with work, I mean, seriously? How is it bad to wear purple or green or yellow rubber bands in my hair? WHY WONT PEOPLE LET ME WEAR COLORS DAMMIT?!?!?!?!?


I think I'm gonna call SJVC now.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Laundry, springtail food, and even more fruit flies

So it's been a day for chores. Which is not how I intended the day to be, but it's just sorta turning out that way. First I had to do laundry. Actually, really, I had to laundry a couple weeks ago, but kept putting it off. I still need to wash my blankets, but at least my towels and clothes are clean (it took 3 loads). Then I made some more fruit fly cultures, ordered some more fruit fly media and some other stuff for them, vacuumed my floor, and squished some plastic bottles to be recycled later. It's only 1:30 and I've spent about $130. ugh.

This week I work every other day. Which is annoying. I mean, couldn't they have given me at least 2 days off in a row?

We think Sasha is sick. Her eyes are all gunky and she's been VERY cuddly and calm. It's kinda nice, but I still hope she gets better soon and is back to her old self. It's been driving Matthew crazy cuz she keeps wanting to sleep on his arm while he's playing the computer, which doesn't really work because he has to keep moving his arm, but then she gets all upset, and he hates to upset Sasha! She tries to do the same thing to me, but I just kick her off. I've tried telling Matthew that she is only a cat, but he doesn't listen. Silly boy.

I need to go to Target later. So I can spend even more money, yay!!

Life is expensive.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

*cries* RIP little Camry!!

It's the saddest thing ever!!

I sold my car. To a junkyard. For $200. :( *snif* I'll miss you little Camry!!! I loved you so much!!!

Stupid thing drove perfectly on the way to the junk yard too. As if to mock us. With its new tires and new registration.

Whatever. Dad promised me that once I got rid of the Camry he'd go buy a Forester and give me the Corolla. Of course, he was a little tipsy when he said that, but that's ok. Mom said that that's alright, he just has to come down here and buy one. I think I might call him now. I work lunches for the next couple of days, so that would be a good time!



I talked to Carina for a bit today. She seems to be doing well, so that's good. I guess she even turned down morphine and is only on vicodin, so she must not even be in much pain, and all her doctors are optimistic. :)

Matthew and I went and saw Eagle Eye yesterday. It was kinda funny, we went to a movie because he had free tickets, and we went to Red Robin because he was craving a sandwich, except we went to a different theater so we had to buy our tickets, and he got a chicken breast and salad, not a sandwich. Silly boy. It was an alright enough movie. The whole thing was pretty silly, but it was entertaining enough.

umm.... Yes, I guess that's it. Now I just need to go bug Dad until he buys a new car.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

work, crossroads, and blood

Hi all you internet people! Ok, mostly just family people, but whatever. The random internet people only read a couple of my posts.

Anywho. I'm actually scheduled to work 6 days this week, which is awesome. Most people only have 4 days. It's nice to know that the managers listen to complaints. I'd talked to Paul (the guy who does the schedules) a couple weeks ago about how I want to get good insurance, and for that I need 25 hours a week, and apparently he's trying to make that happen, despite us being slow these days.

So that's good.

Matthew has been looking into buying a condo. I guess that's good in theory, I mean, if he could afford it it would be good, but he kinda can't, and never once in all his planning and figuring out did he think of me, which irritated me. After listening to him talking about it for a few days I brought it up and he just said that you have to be married to own it together, and he's not going to make me pay for something that's in his name. He also hasn't bothered to ask my opinion about any of the properties he's looking at. Apparently he's already contacted some people about buying one. We've been together for almost 3 years, am I asking too much to be included when he buys a home? I dunno, I love him and all, but this relationship doesn't seem to be going where I wanted it to. I know he always said that he didn't want kids, but I guess I just sorta figured that that was just something that he was afraid of and he'd eventually get over it. But he's not. At all. I mean, his brother, in TEXAS is having a kid and he completely freaked out for 3 weeks! That's not normal. And now he's making life plans that I'm not included in. He's really the only friend I have here though, and I can't imagine what I would do without him. Like Rachel said, we're at a crossroad, and I need to figure out what direction to go in.


Anyway, enough of that.

Lacey invited me to go to her ultrasound today, but I have to work. :( Too bad, I'd like to go.

I think I'm finally better enough to reschedule with Houchin, which is good. Mostly just cuz I was getting really tired of being sick. Stupid Bakersfield. It's been really nice out lately though. Matthew and I even went on a little picnic a couple days ago. :) We found some little park in a nice residential neighborhood off Ming that was almost completely deserted, so that was cool.

Anyway, it's time for me to take a shower, so I'm gonna go do that.

Bye internet (family) people! :)

Friday, October 3, 2008

Having 3 days off in a row is weird

Ugh, so this stupid sore throat that I've had for a couple weeks has turned into a full blown cold. It's annoying. I'm coughing and my nose is running and I'm all stuffed up and ugh.

I hate being sick. I was supposed to go to Houchin on the first, but had to cancel. So not cool.

In happier news though, me and Abby went to Ventura yesterday. It was fun! We went to a couple thrift stores where we met up with Mercedes and each bought some cute new clothes, and then we went to Cafe Bariloche and had some fabulous empanadas, then we went for a walk on the beach and found lots of neat rocks. :) Good times!

I think I'm gonna go buy some drugs now. Yeah.... drugs sound good.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Light makes me sneeze

Oh! I totally forgot! Matthew is going to be an uncle! yay! :) His sister in law, Ashley, is about 8 weeks pregnant, which I think is very fun, but has put Matthew in a very bad mood for the past 3 weeks (when he found out, but I only found out cuz his mom mentioned it a couple days ago). So yay for babies! :)

Catching Frogs, too many birthdays, and King Terask on Insane

Yay, finally more pictures!! I know, I am the worst blogger ever. Well, almost. I mean, I post occasionally, but I have all these Rock Creek pictures that I'm too lazy to do anything with, and even though I have this great camera, I rarely take new pictures. It's quite sad. *cries*

Ok, enough of that. Here's Abby!

And here's Mom and... I forgot his name already.

Yay! Here they are again!! By the way, I totally forgot what lake these were taken at, so if anyone remembers, let me know!

All the kids spent the whole time catching (and, sadly, killing) baby frogs.

So there's some new pictures. I hope you enjoyed them. If you didn't, well, that's ok too, cuz I don't really care much.


So I imported a bunch more cds into my itunes. I'm just as lazy with that as I am with posting pictures, so despite the fact that I've had itunes for like, 2 years (thank you Matthew) I've still got dozens of cd's that aren't on my computer yet. I even had a Coheed and Cambria cd! Psh, craziness.

I've been playing too much neopets. Well, I mean, too much is very subjective, obviously, but... I've been playing a lot. See, I have to beat Neoquest II on Insane mode so I can get the 3 million neopoint prize. The last guy to beat is really hard though, and you can't run away from him, and if you die on Insane mode you have to start the whole thing over again, and it'll take me like 3 months of playing a lot just to get to that point, so if in a few weeks there's a post that consists of nothing but angry cussing, well, you know why.

I'd better beat him.

hmm. yes.

So work is going pretty well. I'm having fun. Most of the time. I had this super bitchy lady yesterday, but she calmed down after she'd eaten and sat there for THREE HOURS. She tipped me a whole $3. woo.

umm... I'm going to Venture tomorrow with Abby to hit the thrift stores for her birthday. That should be fun! We never get to do things with just the two of us (well, three including Aiden) anymore. And even if we do, it's usually just grabbing some Thai food or something. Which is fun, don't get me wrong, but it'll be nice to actually go do something.

oh! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LACEY!! Yay!! :) And Happy Almost Birthday Rachel and Abby!! And Happy belated birthday Mom and Chris! And Happy your birthday is somewhere around here Cathy and everyone else! Isn't Gita's or Dani's birthday around now? I can never remember. I'm horrible. But at least I don't expect anyone else to remember my birthday. So that's fair, right?

I think I'm gonna go take a shower. I've been dancing around my apartment for the past 2 hours and I'm all sweaty and stinky.


Friday, September 26, 2008

Cutting people up is neato.

Crickets are yummy for my geckos.

Hamburger helper made with turkey and vegan meat substitute is yummy for me and Matthew.

Spiders are yummy for my kitties.

My insides kinda hurt. I think I've been drinking too much coffee. I can't help it, I've been in a funk lately. I mean, I'm perfectly fine, at least, I think I am, but everyone around me is constantly bugging me- "are you ok?" "what's wrong?" and coffee makes me hyper enough that they don't ask me.

The other day I walked with $73 after only having $330 in sales. Awesomeness. I even tipped out an extra $10. One lady gave me $18 on her $82 bill, but she had bought a $50 gift card, so she was tipping me almost twenty bucks for swipping a card. Awesomeness. And then there was this sweet Mexican lady and her 8 year old daughter. The woman didn't speak much English, so the daughter did most of the talking, but she was very nice and always said thank you and she let me practice my Spanish on her. They gave me $9 on their $22 bill.

Of course, the next day I walked with $67 after having over $600 in sales, so I guess it all evens out.

In 16 months I'm going to be a surgical technologist. That's kinda crazy. During school I'll help in a minimum of 140 surgical procedures. I'll also have to dissect a cat. :( I have to go buy some scrubs. I'm sad though, cuz the ST's wear ugly khaki scrubs. The RT's (respiratory techs wear maroon, which I like way better). Last night was an open house thingie to try to get people to enroll. I went, along with 5 other people already enrolled. It was kinda nice to meet some other people who are going to be in my class. Unsurprisingly, Hawaii has the highest average salary, so I've decided that I should move there. I mean, yes, it's also way more expensive to live there, but whatever. It's Hawaii!! The South (also unsurprisingly) has very low pay, so Matthew should be happy about that. I am not going to pay $30,000 to go to school so I can get a job that pays $14 an hour (that's the average in Mississippi or Alabama or something).


Matthew was mean to me last night. Before I went to the SJVC thing he's like "Hey! I have good news! What do you want more than anything?" and I"m like "I dunno Matthew, what's the news?" cuz I'm all impatient and not fun like that, and he's like "No, guess! What do you want more than anything in the world?" and I said "to go somewhere fun" and he said "Well, I have tomorrow off, so we should go somewhere! Actually, we could leave tonight and get a hotel room for tonight!" Yay! So I come home and I'm all "so where are we going?" and then he's like "Oh, I forgot, I'm getting my computers tomorrow (he ordered 3 $50 computers a couple days ago) so I need to be home when they get here."

Bastard. Getting my hopes up like that. It's kinda like when Dad said "Oh, we're gonna buy a Subaru and give you the Corolla!"

Everyone just likes to toy with my emotions.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008


I got a bloody nose last night. I NEVER get bloody noses. Like, I haven't had one in probably ten years. It wasn't bleeding very much, but it took like 20 mins for it to finally stop.


Sunday, September 21, 2008

corndogs, blurry dogs, and gimpy hands

Me and Matthew went to the fair on Friday. We both happened to have the day off, and it was nice out (a little warm in the sun, but the shade was nice) so we figured we'd go ahead and check it out. I was just happy to get out of the apartment. :) We didn't go any rides or anything though, we just walked around and looked at the exhibits. I decided I should enter the photography contest next year. I mean, half the pictures there weren't even in focus. And then there was a couple in the 12 and under category that were obviously taken by an adult. At least, they were set up by an adult. Maybe the kid pushed the button, but that's not exactly difficult.


So yeah, we went to the fair.

umm.... Let's see.... My fingers are doing better. My ring fingernail is a still a little sore and has a small bruise, but it's alright. Work was very understanding, too, which was nice. The managers were going out of their way to make sure I was ok to be working, and the other servers were helping me out a lot. The first night I was working in the "lounge" (the bar area and patio) with another server and he ended up taking most of the tables, and then did most of the sidework for me too. I tried to do more sidework, but he wouldn't let me. So that was nice. :)

Matthew's diet is going well. His stomach has been feeling a little better, and we've both been losing weight, which is nice. Especially cuz I'm still eating cookies and other yummy, high fat foods. We sorta cheated at the fair, but that was ok.

umm..... hmm.... See, this is why I haven't been posting very often. There's just not a lot going on.

Oh, I open next Sat, so I should make it to Chris' party. Yay!! :) Tonight Matthew has to go to his Mom's house for dinner, but I have to work. So sad. lol

I guess that's about it. I'll get back to neopets and Star Trek now.

Saturday, September 13, 2008


Ok, note to self- make sure fingers are completely clear of the doorframe when closing the locked car door. It just makes things less painful. grrs. Although, to be honest, they don't really hurt anymore, but last night! OW!!! I'm actually kinda pissed, cuz only one finger is a little red and swollen, and it really hurt, there should be marks! There should be swelling and bruising and maybe some broken bones!!


Thursday, September 11, 2008

mmm... so yummy

I made some veggie soup! Like, actually made it!! I used a can of chicken stock, a can of tomatoes, fresh green beans, garlic, yellow squash, carrots, mushrooms and red bell peppers. Oh man, I forgot to put in the spicy chiles I got!! oh well. It's still really yummy.


i have the hiccups. grrs

I hope you die right now, will you drink my chemicals?

Ah, good ole Coheed and Cambria. It's so deliciously violent.

So I meant to call Carina yesterday, but I kinda felt like crap all day yesterday. You know when you can't sleep and you're lying in bed, wide awake and totally exhausted all at once and you're frustrated and annoyed and it's kinda making you feel sick so you sorta have a headache and you're sorta nauseous and there's really nothing you can do about it? That's how I felt ALL DAY yesterday. It was pretty bad. Luckily Matthew was very understanding, so every time I snapped at him he let it slide. He pointed out that I was really too tired to fight anyway. :)

Anyway. So I'll call her today. After work. Which, unfortunately, will likely be around 7 or 8. Ugh. Stupid slow restaurant. On Tuesday I went in at 5, and they phased me at 6:30, made me give away my last table, so I only took 4 tables all night, but then when I was doing my sidework all of the sudden, in like, 20 mins, every single booth and a few tables got sat. So they unphased me so I could pick up 3 tables, one of which had the gm at it. I was happy. Lani, the manager, kept apologizing for making me stay until I finally told her that I was actually more pissed that she was sending me home early, so I was very glad she was keeping me later. Especially when the gm tipped me $29, another table gave me $17, and the other gave me $8. So that's $54. After tipout I walked with $57. So that was good. But tonight I'm going in at 3:30, which means that I'll be the only server on the clock until 5, but I'll probably be phased when the closer gets there at 6.


So I ordered a gazillion crickets the other day, and let all my animals pig out on them. My baby gecko is all fat now. He's so cute. Of course, I have no pictures to show you because, as you all know, I am lazy about pictures, but you could come by and see them yourself. Of course, then you'd have to deal with the disgusting hell hole that is my apartment, but whatever. I did the dishes today. The sink and counter are both still covered in dirty dishes. grrs. Stupid Matthew not ever doing dishes. I also took out an entire bag's worth of trash from the "living room" but you can't tell. Then I got depressed, cuz I just spent like an hour cleaning with NO visible impact, so I did a puzzle.

Wow, my life is exciting.

So since Matthew is on a diet he's been actually cooking a lot more, and luckily he's followed my advice and started to eat a lot more veggies, which means that he's cooking food that I actually like, so that's nice. I mean, I don't really like it, it's bland and boring, but at least it has fresh veggies in it now! And since we're eating way more veggies and way less meat we're not spending nearly as much on groceries, so yay! :)

Monday, September 8, 2008

Fine, here's a new blog.

I know, I know. I've been really bad about updating my blog these days. I keep meaning to write something interesting, thoughtful, and entertaining so I get lots of cool people visiting, but I'm lazy. So I haven't. I also don't have any new pics. Even though I still have lots of Rock Creek pics in my computer, I haven't resized them or anything yet.

So no pics.

And no wonderfully amazing post either. Sorry.

Last week I almost ran over a goat.

But then at the last second it ran away. Which was good. I'd feel bad if I killed a goat.

So I just got back from Sacramento. That was fun. We went out to some fancy pants club (we got on the guest list cuz Carina's friend won a radio contest or something) and had some fancy drinks (with very little alcohol) and then "danced" to some crappy music. I was just proud of myself for actually "dancing" in public. Ok, so it was more like swaying and moving my arms and feet a little, but that's all anyone was doing anyway, cuz they were playing crappy music, and then when Carina tried to request good music they told her no because they don't take requests. Lame-ola.

But that's ok. Then we went to old town, and went out to a very yummy dinner (I got spinach ricotta gnocchi, so yummy) and a few other stores and went to a tea shop and got some yummy tea and played some games (hearts and some other card game, both of which I won, and Scrabble, which I lost, but did better than I ever have, so it's ok), and then I came home. Yup.

Oh, and I got a cool amber ring for $3 cuz it was on sale and then on clearance. The rings were all regularly priced between $30 and $40. :)


Work's going well, except that I'm not getting nearly as many hours as I'd like. I want 25 hours so I can get the good insurance, instead I'm getting closer to 12. Not cool. It's cuz we've been so slow. Everyone's slow right now though, so that sucks.

umm..... Last weekend I went up to Tehachapi for a mini bbq with Dad and Rachel and the kids. That was fun, even though I got there way late (they offered to give me an extra shift; I can't pass that up these days). I spent the night and then me and Rachel and the kids went for a hike in her backyard. I'm very jealous. I want that backyard!!! Supposedly we were going to a creek, but we didn't find one. We found a spring though! And a dead fox! :( The fox was sad. It looked totally healthy and like it was just sleeping, but it wasn't. There wasn't even many bugs or anything around it.

Matthew's building a tv stand for his laptop. Which he uses as a tv. So it works! Yay hooray!!

Yippie skippy!!

God I'm bored.

I don't work until 5 tomorrow. I'm gonna be bored all day. ugh.

I think I'm gonna cancel my WoW subscription. I haven't really been playing lately, and it's expensive, and I don't really have the money for it. So I'm gonna go do that. And then I'm gonna order some crickets for my frogs. I bought some crickets for my gecko today at PetCo, but their small crickets aren't nearly small enough for my frogs. Which is annoying, cuz it means that I have to keep them separate.

Stupid crickets.

Stupid Petco for only having 2 sizes.


I guess that's it. I wont be making it to Tehachapi this weekend for Mom's birthday cuz I have work. So I'll see you all whenever I see you. Is there something planned for Chris' birthday? It seems like there is... hmm.... I'm bad at remembering stuff like that though.

Ok bye now.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

5k fun run

Hey, anyone wanna do a free 5k fun run/walk (mostly walk I'm thinking) next month?

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

coffee, mantella nigrican, and insomnia

Sorry, no pics this time.

So it's been awhile since I posted. Almost a week! Now, I realize that many of you go much longer, but I usually dont. I guess it's just been a little crazy around here, what with weddings and work and Matthew. Last night we went to his dad's house for a goodbye dinner for his sister. She's moving to Phoenix on Sunday. She invited us over to help her move on Sat. Matthew doesn't want to go, but if I get off work in time I'm going to insist on it. I mean, she's his sister! And she's moving to a different state! He should help. And then maybe, hopefully, he'll realize that moving isn't really that bad, and we'll finally move. That'd be good. I seriously hate this place.

I'm selling at least one of my frogs. The nigrican. Which is the rarest of the frogs I have, but I only have the one, and feel like anyone who has them should be breeding them. It feels like I already wrote about this though... I think the last time I did I was just saying that maybe I'm selling it, now I definitely am. I'll set the starting price at $50, but will accept whatever. Hell, there's a few people who I'd give the frog to because I know they would breed it and take excellent care of it and all that. The main problem is that I need to be feeding these guys pinhead crickets, which would either take a few hundred dollars a month, or me culturing them myself. I wouldn't mind culturing them, but setting it up would be kinda expensive (like $50, not bad, but a consideration), and very noisy, which Matthew would never like. Not to mention they smell bad unless you're very good about cleaning it daily, which I don't think I would be.


I'm drinking coffee. It's decaf, which is good cuz that means that I can actually drink it without any negative effects. *ahem* Of course, it doesn't really wake me up either. But I guess that's ok. It still tastes good.

I've had insomnia for a couple weeks now. It's kinda driving me crazy. It's hard to be in a good mood when you haven't had a good night's sleep in forever. The night before last I did manage to get a couple hours in, but that wasn't nearly enough. I keep staying up until I'm exhausted, going to bed, not being able to fall asleep easily, then when I finally do I wake up again, then in the morning I wake up early and am still too tired to get up, but cant' sleep either. It's really very frustrating and all my sleeping pills are expired so I don't really want to take them. Oddly enough they get stronger as they expire, so I have to be super careful with them, otherwise I'll sleep for 12 hours straight, and that really doesn't make me feel any better than not sleeping.


I love my purple coffee mug. My friend Erin gave it to me for my birthday one year. It was kinda a last minute thing, I think she got it at Albertsons, but it's a perfect mug. It's got a good handle, the rim is the right size, it's narrow enough to hold easily with one hand, but wide enough that I can use both hands if I want, perfect! I know Mom understands the importance of a good coffee mug.

I have to work tonight. I've had the last two days off, which was kinda nice, but meh. I do like that I'm making good money. Actually I still just plain like that I'm getting a paycheck.

Anyway. I'm gonna go back to my coffee and tv.

And I need to iron my shirt.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Yet more pictures, shopping, and cold, hard cash

Lacey in ... Box Lake I think? I'm pretty sure these are at Box Lake...
Apparently Aiden got hot.

So then Alex had to come over to investigate.
Another pic of Leah, Sam, and Logan at Marsh Lake.

I'm bored. I was going to go up to Tehachapi today, but I guess Carina got another ride? Or something? I'm not terribly sure, I was on my way up when she called, so we didn't talk much. So then I came back and went to Target. I got a cute shirt for tonight, a shirt for Sat (and any other day too, but it looks cute with one of my skirts), another random shirt, and some cute shoes for tonight and Sat. So that's good. :) I'm kinda hungry though, and dinner isn't until 7. I might go in a little early and hang out talking to people for a bit though. I haven't been back there since I quit in Feb.


hmm.... I might need to go to the bank.... I don't know that I have any cash... I think I'll go check that.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


is complicated.

That is all.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

pictures, identity theft, and movie reviews

Ugh, I have a headache. Stupid head.

Here's Dad fishing! Yay for fishing!

Be sure to click on the larger version of these next two pictures. I took them completely zoomed in from where Dad was fishing, but I don't really have the right lens for that, so it's still all far. Anyway, my point is that when you look at the big version you can tell who everyone is.

Ah, Marsh Lake, isn't it lovely? The tricky thing about this pic is that it is not a picture of Sam, Leah, and Aiden. It's Sam, Leah, and Logan. Very sneaky. :)

I think I need to sell some of my frogs. Well, mainly just one of them. It's the most unusual frog that I have, which is kinda cool, but it needs to be bred, and I only have the one and I'm not going to be able to buy any more any time soon, so yeah. I think I'm gonna try to sell it to someone who already has some, and knows how to breed them.

Besides, the tank that that one is in is really ugly, and I'm too lazy to redo it.


I was reading through blogs on here and saw that someone had posted something called "blogging tips for beginners" that said that you should write a short 3 or 4 sentence paragraph telling people about you. It should include stuff like your first and last name, the names of your family members, the city and street that you grew up on, and the name of your elementary school. It stopped just short of telling people to give there credit card and social security numbers. *shakes head*

Yeah that's about it. I'm bored. I've been watching movies on Netflix. They don't have any mainstream movies online, but they have a lot of independent films, so I've been watching those. Pan's Labyrinth was amazing (obviously, I knew it was going to be, but it's not really a light movie, so you have to be in the right mood), Cashback was pretty good, I'm Reed Fish was alrightish, 40 Shades of Blue was boring and depressing, so I didn't finish it, Teeth was weird, but I guess it killed time effectively. Yup. I am such a good movie reviewer. :)

Saturday, August 16, 2008


Oh man! You all have to go read this comic!!!!

Seriously! It's just crazy! Read it closely!

More Rock Creek Pictures and Life in General

Yup, 4 more pictures.

Dog Dog!!
He was very sad about being tied up all day.

Funny story about this pic of Emma. Just to show off my photography skills, I managed to take a picture of Rachel that was not only generally unflattering, but also managed to make her look fat. How, I don't know, but I did. So I figured I'd be nice and not post it, but Emma was in the pic too, so yeah. Here ya go.

Here's Abby and 3 (yes, that's right, look closely) of my sobrinos (I have decided that writing nieces/nephews it too annoying, so I'm using the Spanish word from here on out. Deal with it.).

She's showing them how to hunt for fishing lures. I offered to give any kid a dollar if they found one, but aside from the one Abby found in these pics, no one did, so I didn't have to pay anyone. Silly kids.

So there's your Rock Creek pictures of the day. I hope you enjoyed them.

I got to talk to Carina for a bit today. That was good. She kept telling me (and everyone) to not worry about her though, which was quite silly. We're going to worry about you, Carina. We love you and are concerned for your health and well being. It's not a bad thing. And it's not something you have a lot of control over either. So deal with it. (hmm, two "deal with it"s in one entry... interesting..)

Work was really slow today, which was good. I kinda had a lot on my mind. Obviously. I picked up an opening shift tomorrow, and then have Mon and Tues off, so that's nice. I was going to go up to Sacramento, but since her dad is coming up I probably wont. I'll see her when she's in town though.

I have a bug bite on the palm of my hand. It's driving me CRAZY!!!! Seriously, I can't believe I went camping and only got three bites, two on my cheek, and one on my hand. How annoying. I do have a rash on my arm and the back of my neck too. The one on my neck is from my backpack? I think? I got the same thing in Peru anyway. I don't know what the arm one is from, but it's pretty itchy (although nowhere near as annoying as my hand).

umm.... I guess that's it for now.

Yup. It is.