Monday, December 29, 2008

New apartment!!

Yay! I called Diamond Realty and found out that I did get the new apartment, so that's wonderfully good news. This place is so gross; I'm so desperate to get out. :) I can go get the keys and all that tomorrow afternoon, and I'm putting in my 30 days notice today. I have to have Matthew's signature on that, but since he's coming by soon anyway that'll work great. So yay!! :) Adios Pine Brook!

Bitchiness and dirty pots

Yay! I just paid $258 on my credit card, which brings it to below $4,000. :) I need to find a new card though, or maybe just transfer it back to my other card cuz I'll have to start paying interest in March, and I'm just really enjoying this whole no interest thing too much. It's making it way easier to pay off.

So I know I just posted about Matthew like an hour ago, but whatever. Apparently I'm not quite done. So he's supposed to come by today after he gets off work. I can't decide if I want to be nice just to make it go easier, or if I want to be bitchy and petty (is that spelled right? it doesn't look right..) cuz that's how I'm feeling. I have already decided that if he wants to take Fuzzy he can catch her himself, I'm not helping.


I need to call about apartments. I'm having too much dancing though (thanks Loss Adjuster for introducing me to some fun music!)! I'm going to go meet up with Mom at the Burlington Coat Factory in a few minutes though. Really, what I need to do, more than anything else, is dishes. But I really don't want to. Especially cuz all the dirty ones are Matthew's. Like I said, I'm feeling petty and bitchy.

I think I owe Mom some money for texts though. I've been texting kinda a lot lately. Well, a lot for me. It's not like I'm Abby or anything. lol

At least I did laundry so I have cute clothes to wear when he comes over. :)

I've decided that Matthew is a jerk.

Grrs to Matthew! He just sent me the most condescending email ever, full of things like "I will have to get my computer back now, I'm sorry I held out as long as I could, I just honestly thought you would be out of there by now." Whatever. I guess that means he has a new place now though, which I guess is good. Or something.

Last night I thought I worked at 4:30 in the lounge, and accidentally got there way early cuz I hit all green lights, so I got there at 4, but actually I was closing and didn't clock on until 5:30, so I had to wait an hour and a half. I was just going to come back home or something, but there were some other servers there waiting for their ride/to clock on/to go out and get some drinks, so I just hung out and talked and whatnot, which was nice, until I realized that everyone who left did so without even saying bye or anything, which kinda pissed me off. Ok, I say everyone, I really just mean.... uh.... wow, my mind blanked on her name. Anyway, we were sitting talking for like an hour and then Kim was ready to go so she just got up and left. She even left her glass there on the table for me to pick up.

So grrs to her too!

I dunno, the more I think about all this mess with Matthew the more pissed off I get.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

I need a boy to flirt with.

Good morning! How are all of you doing? I'm good! Tired though, I didn't sleep well last night, which is weird, isn't alcohol supposed to help you sleep? Meh.

So me and Ryan just ended up going to Que Pasa for some margaritas and then back to my apartment to hang out until like 11:30. I kept calling Dustin to try to get him to come over too cuz Ryan has a girlfriend and it's just not as much fun to drunkenly flirt with guys who have girlfriends, but he was out playing pool and making money so he didn't come over, but he said he would tonight so I'll call him after work.

I think I've been drinking too much lately though. Wait, let me rephrase, I've been drinking way more in the past two weeks than I have in the past like 5 years, and I've been bad about making sure to drink enough water to counteract the alcohol, so I'm all dehydrated. I kinda didn't realize how much until I weighed myself this morning, and saw that I'm FOUR POUNDS lighter than I was before Christmas, and I've been eating a lot. lol. Needless to say, I've had two water bottles already and I'm feeling better. :)

And my pizza is almost done, yay!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Pizza should NOT take an hour to make!!

Last night sucked. A lot. We got totally slammed, which normally would be a good thing, but for some reason pizzas got WAY behind, so tickets were taking an average of 45 minutes. Ugh. That meant a lot of unhappy people, and a wait when there shouldn't have been, and a very slow table turnover time. So even though I had a totally full 6 table section for 4 hours, and even though my average ticket was between $50-100 I only did $650 in sales and walked with $81. And then, just to top it all off, some creep flashed one of our take out girls when she was bringing him his pizza. She (being unbelievably naive) thought that he might have just accidently had his pants unzipped and didn't even mention it until he'd already been gone for like 40 minutes, and then wasn't going to tell the managers, which I completely disagreed with, so when the regional manager (who got to witness the mess with the pizzas, not good) was leaving I told him he needed to go talk to her. So then they wouldn't let me walk to my car by myself (despite the fact that this had happened like 4 hours before I was leaving) so I had to wait for someone to walk me out, which always makes me feel silly, especially since I parked close last night cuz someone was talking up my normal parking space (along with 5 other spaces).

So THEN, I come home and the internet hadn't been working all day, and the lights in my room wouldn't turn on, even though I flipped every breaker like 4 times, so that was frustrating, so I decided to just go to bed cuz I was tired and it was like 10:30, so I lay down and the lights come back on by themselves. So I got up, turned them all off, and then finally got to sleep.


Now I need to go to my apartment manager's office to see if I have some geckos waiting for me (I shouldn't, but I need to double check) and to mention the lights to them, although there's not much they can do. And I need to call Matthew to tell him how much he needs to pay for rent, and then I think I'm going to call Ryan (now that he remembers who I am) and see if he wants to hang out tonight. I hope he does. I don't need a repeat of yesterday.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

I thought it was supposed to be a white Christmas?

On all the news stations all they've been talking about for the past few days is how much snow Tehachapi is supposed to get on Christmas.  Well where is it?  I stayed the night up here with my parents and there's no snow!  grrs!!!  At least there should be some at Rachel's.

Anyway.  It's a little weird to not have Matthew around during Christmas.  It's nice to not have to deal with his mother, but kinda weird to not be exchanging presents or anything.  *shrug*  I sent him a text saying Merry Christmas, but he didn't respond.

Umm...  yes.   Mom and Dad gave me $250 and some books on Portugal, awesome!!!  :)  And then a nice sweater, a calander, and a Princess Bride video game for my computer, lol.  And then in class I got a pound of Starbucks coffee from another student.  She brought enough for everyone to get a bag, which was really nice, cuz that's not cheap.  I mean, they're like $10 each and there's 20 students.  That's like $200!  I barely know her name!  It was very nice though.  Dustin (he sits behind me, he's the one who looks like Ian and the one I played pool with) kept stealing mine, so I was stealing his banana.  Yes, that's right, during anatomy we get so bored we resort to 7th grade and make banana jokes and steal stuff from each other.  And then he found out that I'm ticklish, which is very, very, very bad.


I think we're about to leave to go to Rachel's, so I guess that's it.  Merry Christmas everyone!  Hopefully it snows later (although not so much that we get stuck anywhere).  :)

Monday, December 22, 2008

Woohoo, I beat Terask on insane!

Yay, I finally beat neoquest II on insane difficulty! I won a 3 million np item for it. :)

In other news, I'm hungry. As always. Well, sorta. The last few days I'll be really hungry and take like two bites of food and totally lose my appetite. I had some oatmeal for breakfast this morning with Dad, and then a piece of pizza for lunch, but nothing sounds good. I think I might be getting sick or something. I dunno. I have had a headache for a couple days. Oh, I did buy some empanadas (well, she called them cookies, but whatever, I think she just said cookies cuz I'm white, lol) from some lady who knocked on my door. They're strawberry. 3 for a dollar. The inside of them wasn't all that great (kinda just tasted like jam), but the pastry part was very yummy.

So even though I only got 82 questions right according to the scantron, I got a 91% on my midterm, yay! Apparently the teacher realized that we hadn't gone over a couple of the questions, so he gave us the points if missed them, and the scantron missed a lot of questions. The guy behind me (Dustin) scored 67, but actually got 86%.

Anyway, I think I'm gonna go make a tomato sandwich and take an aspirin.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Once upon your dead body

I'm bored.

I don't go to work for another hour and a half. I was going to get up and go to church, but the stupid cats were playing all night long and didn't actually quite down until about 8, so when the alarm went off at 9:30 I just turned it off and went back to bed. Stupid cats. Matthew said he's going to come by to get his, but I don't know when he was planning on coming. He can't next week, at least, not if he wanted me to be here (and I kinda want to be here cuz he wants to split up some of the kitchen stuff and I'd like to be there for that, not that he'd screw me or anything (this is Matthew we're talking about) but still) cuz I'm busy all week. Tomorrow Dad's coming by to look at the apartment and buy me food (he might claim to have different reasons to come to town, but I know that really it's just about buying me food), Tuesday I have school all day, then I get my geckos, then I go to work, Wed I'm going up to Tehachapi for clam chowder (again, it's all about the food), Thursday he'll be stuck with hs family (HA!) and Friday... well, I'll just be getting back into town, and then I have to go to work. So that's just not gonna work.


I am realizing now that I have very little time for homework next week. I don't have class on Wed or Thursday, but I do on Mon and Tuesday, so I should probably do everything I can tonight.

That's the responsible thing to do anyway.

And, as we all know, I would never dream of being irresponsible.


I guess that's about it. I really am a very boring person. Well, I lead a boring life anyway. I think I'm pretty interesting, I'm just too lazy to ever actually do anything blog worthy. Which doesn't stop me from blogging, mind you. It just means that I never have anything meaningful to say.


Friday, December 19, 2008

awkwardity (I can make up words), loud bass, and nonexpired milk

I feel very accomplished today. I tend to put off chores until the very last minute (why is the "t" and the "y" button sticking? That's really annoying) so today, it is unfortunately the last minute. I called about another apartment (I decided that the one I looked at yesterday was just too small for how much they were charging) and liked it much better, so I went ahead and applied for it. It's a 2 bedroom, 1 bath with a garage and hookups that's off of Ming and Akers, so still in my general neighborhood, but it's not a huge complex, which is nice. The only bad thing about it was that when I went to look at it the downstairs were playing some rap so loudly, and with the bass turned up so high that I could understand every word they were saying while inside the apartment (it's upstairs), and I could feel the floor vibrating through my feet. I asked them about that and they said they'd take care of it though, so that's good. And anytime they do it while I am living there (if I do move there) just call them and they'll send someone by to have them turn it down.

So that's good. Hopefully. I really hate my current apartment. Between the flooding, the roaches and the pot smoking 8 year olds I really feel like it's time for a new place.

Besides, it's weird living somewhere that you used to live with your ex, but he's gone now. Kinda weird. It'd take way too long before I stopped thinking of the other room as "Matthew's room."

Then after I did that Mom called and we went to Mama Roomba's where I had a fabulous Cuban pork sandwich and some sweet potato fries. Yummy. :) Of course, since I ate it with 2 cups of coffee there was no way I could actually finish it, so I have a half a sandwich to eat tonight when I get off work, unless I end up going to a party at some girl's house from school. Well, I guess it's actually her ex's house, where she doesn't live anymore, and he's not invited, so she's kicking him out? Or something? It all sounded very strange, but whatever. She turned 21 on Thursday, which was fun, cuz that was when we had a midterm and someone brought cake for her, so we got to take our test while eating yummy chocolate cake. woohoo!! :)

I didn't do quite as well on my midterms as I'd hoped, 87 on one and 82 on the other, but I suppose that's still ok.

At least I passed.

And I did way better on the second on that the smart guy behind me (Ian's twin) did.

Not that I'd gloat or anything.


And THEN, after food we went to Goodwill to kill some time before Mom had to go back to jury duty, and then I went to the bank to make sure I had money in there so I could go grocery shopping, which I did, but then I got home I realized I had no counter space or anything, so I had to do some dishes and take out the trash.

And now I"m gonna take a shower and then I'll go to work.

And then maybe to a party.

But maybe not.

I dunno. A bunch of drunk 20 year olds doesn't really interest me much.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


Oh man, this is wonderful. I got a new space heater for my room, and, unlike my last one, it actually works. It's blowing lovely warm air all over me. Mmmm......

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

*Bangs head into wall*

So the circuit breaker tripped last night for the dining room/living room and wouldn't go back on until after he switched the main breaker, and then the breaker for that area. Very frustrating. Of course, still not nearly as frustrating as the fact that my bedroom floor is, once again, soaking wet. It's not as bad as it was last time, so I'm not even mentioning it, but I do have a appointment to see a condo tomorrow. It's in kinda a crappy location (basically it's behind SJVH) but it's cheap(ish), has a cool tree in front (I like trees dammit!) and has laundry hookups as well as a fenced yard. So hopefully that works.

In other news, having very little food, very little money, and even less time is forcing me to get creative with what I eat, but I did manage to make some pretty good breakfast burritos. yummy. :)

Oh, and I hate the program director at school. Well, ok, so I don't hate her, I just hate her tests. They're totally unfair. And I'm not a person who normally whines about that kind of thing. But when you have the same question repeated three times on a midterm ad expect different answers each time, that's not fair. When you ask a question that has two different answers depending on what book you are reading, and then you give both answers as choices, that's not fair. When you ask a question that could mean two different things, that's not fair. I know the material. I do. But I am sure that I only got a C on the midterm because she sets it up so people will fail. The average on the tests that she writes is a full two letter grades lower than the tests that she just took out of the book. Obviously there is something wrong there.


Whatever though, I'm in this program to learn the information so I can get certified, and the people who write the tests that I've been getting all A's on are the same people who write the certifciation exam, so I should be good.

Now let's hope I can find a better apartment.

Monday, December 15, 2008


I came home from work last night to find what looked like dirt spread all over the floor in the living room. WTF? I thought maybe the apartment people had been in to see if I flooded, or maybe someone broke in and they had really dirty feet or something? But then I looked closer and saw that it wasn't dirt, it was bits of dried leaves. Hmmm.... Then I noticed how freaked out the cats looked. They were all hanging out in the living room with wide eyes and poofy tails. And that's when I solved the mystery.


I guess when I mailed a check a few days ago I didn't close the drawer all the way, and the same drawer that has the envelopes also has the catnip, and they got it out. Needless to say I figured I'd better clean it up before they all OD. :)

Silly kitties.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Margaritas, beer, and pool= a good time for all

It is a sign of how seldomly that I drink that one margarita and two small beers got me this drunk, but well, they did. I'm feeling much more sober now, which is why I'm able to write this.


I hung out with some people from school today. It was a lot of fun. We played some pool, and hung out here for a bit (despite the fact that one of them, Dustin, is allergic to cats, oops) and all in all, I had a fun time. And since Matthew did move out today, it was nice to spend my first night of living by myself (after 3 years) hanging out with friends, instead of actually being by myself. I definitely think that they were only humoring me towards the end, but it was still nice. And it's nice to know that they were willing to do that, although I suspect that that's cuz they totally have a crush on each other. I'll post some of the pics I got of them later. Totally cute.

But now, it's midnight and I"m sleepy, so I'm going to bed. Night!!

Friday, December 12, 2008

I'm so proud of myself

So I know you were all expecting me to like, shut down, or at least be depressed, or something, but I'm not! Quite the opposite in fact. Tonight after work I went and hung out with everyone at the Elephant Bar, something they do almost every night, and something I've never had the courage to do (it's stupid, I know, but I'm too afraid to go somewhere with someone unless specifically invited, so even though I've always known that it would be totally cool if I went to EB with everyone, since I've never actually had someone say "Hey Susannah, wanna go next door after work?" I never have. When I showed up tonight everyone was all excited. :) )and tomorrow night I'm hanging out with someone from school. This is the first time I've hung out with people from work since John Paul, and the first time I've hung out with people from school since.... umm.... Nick... like 4 years ago....

So yay!!

In more sad news, I managed to cut my hand, right in between my fingers with the lid on the trash can at work today. It's one of those swingy triangle lids and the corners are sharp! It hurt, but then the antiseptic stuff that I sprayed on it was also a pain reliever, so it doesn't hurt anymore, but cuts there tend to take FOREVER to heal, and I'm not looking forward to trying to scrub in with it.

But that's ok.

Umm.... let's see... Matthew is staying with his sister. Well, sorta. He started moving his stuff over there today, but he didn't finish apparently, cuz he just walked in. :) He said that if I can't find an apartment by the end of the month and have to stay here longer he'll pay his half of next month's rent too, which was nice, but kinda unnecessary. I mean, why should he pay when he's not living here? On the other hand, he broke up with me and said that living with me makes him suicidal, so I dunno.

I guess that's about it for now. :)

I'm still all proud for actually making an effort to make friends. Yay!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Sasha is crazy

I'm sitting on my bed with the laptop on my lap (weird place for it, I know) wearing my sweatshirt (you all know the one, it's that thing that I wear every day during winter for the past 7 years) and Sasha comes up and tries to get into my pocket. Now, I know she's a small cat (although way bigger than Eek), but there's no way she's gonna fit in my sweatshirt pocket. She did successfully get her head into it, but not the rest of her body. Not that she's gonna let a little thing like that stop her. She laid down with her entire body sticking out, and her paws underneath my sweatshirt, and promptly started purring.

Matthew is so gonna miss her.


He did buy me a pumpkin pie milkshake though. It was yummy.

Turtle poo is stinky.

So Matthew's insisting that he didn't break up with me. All he did was tell me that A-I am incapable of changing, B-He is incapable of changing, and C-Living like this makes him suicidal. But that doesn't mean he wants to break up! Apparently what he wants is to move into different apartments and stay together, which I told him I didn't want to do. So then I asked him point blank if he wants to stay together and stay living together, or move into different places and break up. There's only two choices. He just sat there quietly for about 2o mins and then walked out of the room.

So that's pretty much what's going on there. We're not really talking to each other much. Like, he asked me how Fuzzy was doing without as much fur (he cut a bunch off a few days ago cuz she was getting matted) and... umm... Actually that's about it. Needless to say we don't have much of a relationship right now, but we're not fighting... so that's good I guess. Chris came over today to help me move my bed back into my room cuz it was still in the living room, which was just annoying. Matthew's in his room. Obviously.

Hmm... Now that my APMT class (Anatomy and Physiology and Medical Terminology) has finished with the MT part we're getting a ton of homework, so that's keeping me busy. Yesterday we were assigned 25 key terms to define, and today we were assigned another 50 or so, along with several work sheets, which are all due on Monday. And I still have my other 2 classes. So all in all I have at least two hours of homework every night, or an entire day of homework if I put it off until Sunday, which I'm trying not to do, which is easier since this is Matthew's computer and he does actually need it sometimes, which means that sometimes I have no computer at all, like today when I didn't have one for like 3 hours, so I got caught up on some homework (I still have a few hours more) and fed all my animals (even the snake!) and cleaned out the turtle tank. :)

I've called about some apartments, but haven't filled out any applications yet, which I know will make some of you annoyed (Hi Mom!) but, well, um..... I don't really have any good excuses. I mean, yeah, I've got hw and all, and all the drama with Matthew, but that is all stuff that I could do during the evening and then still have time to look for apartments during the day. What can I say, I'm lazy. And if you ask Matthew, that's never going to change.

Oh, and to answer your question, I'm ok. Which is kinda weird, but I'm honestly not depressed or all that upset or anything. We'd been having a lot of problems lately and it kinda got to the point where I just didn't really care anymore and it's not like this was unexpected anyway.


Tuesday, December 9, 2008


Hmm. I think Matthew might have broken up with me last night. That kinda sucks.

Monday, December 8, 2008

What the fuck?

So apparently is totally unacceptable for me to accidentally go into Matthew's email, but is totally ok for him to intentionally log into mine and then read my emails after yelling at me for reading his. Asswipe.

Ok, well, no, apparently it wasn't ok for him to do that. But he was interested in how much the geckos cost. It wasn't ok, but he was interested! I mean, he didn't yell at me for reading his, why am I yelling at him?

Whatever. We just need to move and each get our own computers set up. That should help.


New geckos!!

So today I ordered a couple new viper geckos to replace the ones that the kitties killed. I like viper geckos dammit! And they're the only species I've successfully bred. So successfully in fact, that another egg hatched today! It's the last one. But it's a little bigger than the other one when it hatched, which is a good sign. It looks very healthy, so yay! I went from one adult female and a juvie (who I know now is female, apparently they're sexable at 3 months) to one adult female, one adult male, 3 uknown babies, and one 4 month old female. :) Too fun! I'll get some pics when the new ones arrive.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

I'm so boring.

I'm bored.

My computer still isn't set up, which is a problem, because I don't know most of my logins to all my various sites that I use. So I'm sorta without anything to do. I mean, yes, I suppose I could do some homework or something constructive, but I don't particularly feel like it.

I got a $137 check for the lawsuit against OG, woohoo! :) Considering I don't think I was really cheated out of anything, and all I had to do was sign 2 papers and send in two letters, it's a pretty good deal. And I need the money too, cuz not only do I still need a new apartment, and a new car, but I got the ok from school to miss a couple weeks so I can go to Portugual! Yay!!! :)

I looked at a tank at someone's house today. Unfortunately, it didn't have the right kind of lid, and it's just not worth the trouble. It would've worked for my frogs, and I would've loved to buy it (it was a corner tank, very nice dimensions for building tropical frog tanks, and those usually run at about $350-$500 new, and this one was $85 with the stand included) but Matthew would've thrown a fit and pointed that we really don't have room for a big tank that I don't actually need, especially when I'll still have to buy a big tank that I do need. So I passed. :(

grrs. So now that I really have nothing else to do anyway, Matthew's stealing his laptop.

So I guess this is it.


Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Hypothetical situations, gross fingernails, and hypothetical sitations. Really. Hypothetical.

So my apartment flooded. We spent a night at the Hilton, which was fun. Kinda. Matthew still managed to be late, which is sorta hilarious. They dried the carpet, which was a nice first step, but we had to wait until today before they could clean it. Unfortunately, the mold is more in the walls and everything else than it is in the carpet, so our bedroom still smells REALLY bad (seriously, the turtles have nothing on 30 year old flooded mildew walls) so we're still sleeping in the living room. It makes it kinda tricky when he leaves for work at 6:30 and I'm still in bed. My computer is still in pieces, so I'm using Matthew's laptop. Oh, and speaking of which, let's just say, hypothetically, that you're apartment/house flooded and you have to use your significant other's computer. So you get on it to check your email, which happens to use the same site as his, so when you click on, for example, gmail, it logs him in automatically. Now, let's say, just for pretend, that you happened to notice an email from myspace that says "New message from *insert your sig. other's ex's name*" Wouldn't you click on it? And then, when you saw that it was an invitation to lunch, wouldn't you be interested in the rest of the SEVENTEEN MESSAGES OVER TWO MONTHS THAT HE NEVER TOLD YOU ABOUT? I mean, ok, so he wasn't cheating on me or anything, but I am still adamant that I didn't do anything wrong; all I did was the same thing that anyone would've done.

Hypothetically of course.

Cuz, it's not like any of this happened or anything.


In other news, news that actually happened, my fingernail is coming off. It kinda hurts. But they let me slide with the hole scraping under the nails thing during lab today, so that was nice. And work feels bad for me, so they've been buying my dinner. Not cuz of the nail, cuz of the flooded apartment. Umm.... I have all A's in my classes. Which I pretty much knew anyway, but I got the actualy percents yesterday. Yay for me.

Ummm..... We looked at apartments today, but that's always tricky and complicated when you're dating a crazy man. He whined that he didn't like any of the apartments that I had circled, expect the one that was already rented and wouldn't have another opening until Jan, so then I told him to find one, and then he whined about how he hates that he has to do all the work. grrs. I'm getting way better at managing his craziness though, so I was able to pause, take a breath, and come up with an alternative solution. Oddly enough, once I offer to do it exactly his way, he relaxes about it a lot, and then we can just do it the easy way. Which probably doesn't make any sense... I mean, ok, like he didn't even want to look at any of them because he thought the neighborhood might be bad, or it was too expensive, or whatever, but when I volunteered to call first, find out everything I can from them, go online to google street view (an awesome thing btw) so we can see what they look like, and even volunteered to make appointments that I had no intention of keeping, he was like "well, ok, we could just drive by this one and if it looks ok just go up to the office to talk to them," which was exactly what I trying to do in the first place.

There's a lot of reverse psychology that goes on when dealing with Matthew.

I guess that's about it. We're just doing what we can to deal with the current living situation, Matthew's trying to find a new job, I'm working and going to school. Life.