I'm cold and white, I'm holding on, I'll try to breathe for you

Alright Matthew, here's the deal. You want me to stop blogging about how you're being such an asshole? Fine. Stop being an asshole. Then I won't have anything to write about. But when you hack into my computer without telling and try to steal pictures of me you're being an asshole and I'm gonna blog about it. You don't seem to get it. I don't want your passwords. I don't want to get into your email. After the way you've been acting the last couple of days I don't want anything to do with you. I'd kinda like to forget about the past three years.

Ok? Ok.

In other news, I'm in LA waiting for my passport. We drove down here last night and got a hotel room cuz my appointment was at 7am. Then we got up bright and early and went down there, the whole thing took about 45 mins, which was awesome. At first she said that I'd have to come back on Tuesday or Wed, but then I asked if I could get it today cuz I came down from Bakersfield, and she was like "Oh! I didn't see that that's where you live! Sure, we can get that today." So that was nice. :) It always helps having an early appointment and giving them a big "Good morning! How are you?" when you want to get things done your way. So that means that I'll be able to get to work on time too, which is good.

We had a big fundraiser at work last night. It was funish. I didn't like the idea of being on tv while working, and the mascot and Jam dancers kept getting in the way, but that's alright I guess. All the guests were having fun, which makes our life easier. Except for one table I had. I didn't like them.

*ahem*

hmm.... I think I'm gonna read some more of In a Sunburned Country. :) yay for Australia!!

And now that I have a passport, yay for being able to get back into the country!

Matthew is an asshole.

So after blowing me off yesterday because he had a headache, Matthew finally came over to help me clean today. He was there for about an hour, told me that he was lying about several things during our three year relationship, and then announced that he was done cleaning and was leaving because he did way more than he needed to anyway.

FUCKING PRICK!!!

So the apartment is still not clean. I just came home to grab some food and empty the van. Honestly I'm pretty tempted to just not clean it at all. I mean, what difference does it make? It's not like I'd get a deposit back anyway (well, I would, but it requires both our signatures to cash it, and if I did that then he'd probably end up getting some of it, which is NOT HAPPENING so I've decided to just not cash it) so I don't really have to worry about cleaning it.

fucker.

Staphylococcus aureus, lame excuses, and not nearly enough sleep

I find it entertaining that despite the fact that I am totally busy these days and always stressed and exhausted I still find time to blog.

I think my priorities are a little messed up.

Anyway.

So Matthew was supposed to come by the apartment today to help me clean cuz we have to be out by Thursday, but then he said that he actually was working until 7, not 3 like he normally does, and then low and behold, he calls me at 6 to tell me that he wont be able to make it all cuz he has a headache.

Whatever.

So I cleaned a little bit, made several trips to the dumpster, and then came home cuz I have a presentation to do tomorrow for Gomez. It should be pretty easy. It's on Staphylococcus aureus, which is really common, so it was really easy to find a TON of info on it. And it's only a 5 minute presentation, so no worries there. I couldn't find my printer though, so I had to draw and stuff for my "visual aid" so hopefully that's ok. I'm not exactly the most artistic, but it's bright and colorful and I think it looks ok. I put a paper on there that says "Fun Facts!" in big letters and then says stuff like "Causes Toxic Shock Syndrome!" and "Has several antiobiotic resitant strains!" and "Can give you food poisoning!"

I mean, come on, does it get any more fun than sudden, possibly life threatening fevers that don't respond to any medication?

:)

So, I go to clean my litter box the other day and it was suspiciously not full. I think Adam cleaned it out while I was in the shower. He threatened to do that while we were all drunk, but the only time he could have was the next morning, when we were sober again (we're responsible people, we decided that we were too drunk to drive so he crashed here and Monje drove home cuz he hadn't drank nearly as much as us). And then I noticed that all the empty beer bottles were lined up on my counter with all the labels facing the same way.

I don't know if that was really nice or kinda creepy... Either way I've decided that I need to invite him over more, I could use all the help I can get to keep this place clean.

Anyway. The last few nights I've been going to bed after midnight and then having to get up at 6, so I really just want to go to sleep now.

Night!

my boyfriend is music, my boyfriend is music

I've had that song stuck in my head the last few days, which is a good thing I guess. I only listen to upbeat music when I'm in a good mood, so yeah.

School was soooooo boring today. I'm pissed that my anatomy class isn't more interesting. I mean, I LIKE anatomy! ugh. I hate boring teachers. And then in my other class we were going over basic chemistry again and OH MY FUCKING GOD PEOPLE THIS IS NOT COMPLICATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!GGGAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH By basic I mean "This is an atom. It has electrons, protons and nuetrons." "Wait, I thought they had a nucleous?" This is like the 5th time we've gone over it. The teacher has started to just give us information that's only sorta right to make it easier for people. Like saying that the atomic number (referred to simply as "that number in the corner") is the number on electrons. The thing is, he obviously is a smart guy who totally understands chemistry, and I'm actually very impressed with his patience. I don't have any. Not when it comes to trying to teach people stuff that's easy for me and hard for them. But SERIOUSLY???? This is very basic stuff. I learned this stuff in FIFTH GRADE!!!!!!!

ugh.

In other news, I have an appointment in LA to get my passport on Friday morning, which is good. I made sure that I have my birth certificate (at least I didn't lose everything), and I've already got the applications, so all I need is to get my pictures. And talk someone into going with me. I'm trying to get Adam (a friend from work) to go with me. At first he said he was busy, so then I was like "Oh, well that's ok then. I just get all freaked out when driving around LA when I don't really know where I'm going and I'm by myself." "Oh, you're going by yourself?" "Looks like it. I don't really know anyone else who could go with me. I know you work that night, but so do I, so I'd be back by then anyway, which is why I asked, but it's ok if you're busy." "I might be able to go...."

bwahahaha I love manipulating boys.

That makes me sound terrible, but I don't want to drive down there by myself!!! It's kinda tricky to ask people to voluntarily get up early (I made an early appointment so I'd be sure to have plenty of time before work) and then go hang out at a passport office all day.

Anyway.

*yawn* sleepiness, lost passports and killer spiders

I'm still sleepy. Wed night I hung out with some friends after work. It was fun, we played some pool, drank some beer, and crashed at around 6 am, and then woke up at 8, and then after making sure everyone got home safely I went to school, then searched for my passport which I cannot find anywhere (I knew where it was in the old apartment, but moving kinda screws everything up, I think I'm just going to try to get another one expedited cuz mine expires in a year anyway) then went to the old apartment to help "clean" it, but I was too tired to do much. That and when the third spider jumped on me I was too freaked out to actually touch anything. I did get another load in the van, and Matthew started cleaning one of the bathrooms, but that's it. Given how busy we both are these days I don't know when we're gonna have time to clean it. I guess they're promoting him so he's working more hours than usual.

Anyway.

I'm gonna go buy some bug bombs, go set them off, go the bank, the post office, and then to work.

I am seriously ready for a vacation.

Australia, water heaters, and a depressing lack of photographs.

So I paid for Australia this morning. I am officially going. Craziness!

I still haven't figured out what to do with my animals. Anyone wanna volunteer? You'd only have to come over 3 or 4 times while I'm gone. I was going to ask Amanda (well, her son), but she turned me down before I could. She said I could still use her as an absolute last... uh.... brain fart! What's the word? last.... umm........

Ok moving on!

I'll try to get some pics of the new place up soon, but no promises. I'll have lots of great pics to put up in a month or so! :) Carina said she'll bring her laptop so we'll be able to update while we're there, but no promises about that either. When I'm vacation I tend to not be too interested in blogging. I'd rather be laying out on the beach or petting a koala or whatever. :)

I'm gonna see if I can pick up some extra shifts at work. It shouldn't be too hard. People always want days off, but people also always want extra days. I'd like to use my credit cards as little as possible, so that'll mean having as much cash as possible.

I have some sad news. I do not, as it turns out, have hot water. Nope, I only have warm water. Which is annoying, but at least I can take a shower. I'll have to talk my neighbors into letting me into their garage so I can turn it up. I think they're getting irratated with me, but whatever. It'll be less annoying to get this all taken care of at once so I'm not bugging them every other week. Much better to just bug them every day of one week, right?

Anywho, I have homework. As always. So I'm gonna go do that so I don't have to do it tonight after work.

Bye!

FINALLY!!!

Hmm, apparently this is not my first post entitled "FINALLY!!!" Interesting.

Anyway, I have internet, yay!!

And even better than that, I have HOT WATER!!!!

Oh man am I looking forward to taking a nice hot shower. Since the PG&E guy came while I was at school (for the THIRD time) and the Brighthouse guy was supposed to come right after I got out of school I was waiting for him, but then he was late, and now I figured I really needed to write on here, cuz, well, it's been a long time, and I have a lot going on.

So here's the full story for those of you who didn't know. My old apartment flooded and was sucky anyway, and then my boyfriend (of almost 3 years) dumped me so I found myself needing a new place to live. After much procrastination and drama with apartment managers I found a place that looked ok so I applied for it, and was approved about a week after they said they'd let me know. So all excited and happy I start the very long process of moving in. Granted, it could've gone much faster, but I'm lazy, and as mentioned earlier, like to procrastinate. That, and I couldn't get my gas turned on. See, way long ago in the dark ages when this place was built some genius decided that I can't be trusted with a water heater, so to be safe, they put it in my neighbors garage. Really quite considerate of them. I mean, had I had access to my water heater (or less flaky neighbors) I only would've gotten to experience the joy of waiting for the PG&E guy once, instead of three times. I also wouldn't have gotten to get up bright and early every morning in my nice new (to me) apartment and then drive to my shitty, old, dirty apartment to shower. There was one time when I just couldn't be bothered to do that so I just took an ice cold shower, but that gave me a really bad headache, so I'm not doing that anymore. I didn't have hot water in Peru, but since the air outside was so warm the water was much warmer, and it didn't feel nearly as bad anyway. I mean, who wants a hot shower when you've been hiking all day and it's 100 degrees out and so humid you feel like you're drowning?

Anyway. So I finally have hot water, and Brighthouse finally came by to turn on my internet (I made this appointment 3 weeks ago, and this was the soonest they could come) so all is well.

Mostly.

I'm still not completely out of my old apartment, which is kinda tricky cuz Matthew is coming by on Thursday to help me clean it, mwahahaha! Little does he know! He's actually helping me to finish move out! And then clean on Saturday!

He dumped me! I don't have to be nice to him!

meh.

So there's that.

And then, on Sat, Carina tells me that she's going to Australia, yay!! On February 5th! And wants me to come with her!

uh...... welll..... I'd love to Carina, but that's really short notice, there's no way I'll be able to talk school into letting me miss two weeks, in two weeks.

Or.... will I?

So I go and talk to them today, opening with "So my older sister has brain cancer and it's been her lifelong dream to go to Australia and her church just gave her a bunch of money to go and she doesn't want to go by herself..." and of course by that time, who could say no? Granted, I almost couldn't cuz they have a maximum number of days that you can miss in a row before you're automatically dropped (no exceptions), but there's a holiday in there so that means that I'm at the max, instead of over it. I'll also be going to lab two or three times for the next couple of weeks, which kinda sucks cuz I don't like getting up at 6, but it'll be good practice for when I"m working and will be getting up at 4.

Actually, right now, I can't even comprehend getting up at 4am on a regular basis.

That's just too freaking early.

And it's not like I can be lazy and just shower the night before cuz when you're in surgery you really have to be as clean as possible. It's an actual, stated requirement that I shower in the morning.

grrs.

For some reason Mom and Dad are more concerned that work wouldn't let me leave, but I'm a server. It's kinda just understood that I'll be taking a few weeks off all the time. Everyone does. We're all young and well paid, so why wouldn't we take vacations? And since we all want to work as much as possible when we are here getting shifts covered is NEVER a problem.

Umm.... I think that's pretty much it. They let us out of lab early today so we could watch the inauguration, but I didn't. Yes, I know, very exciting, historical moment, and definitely cause for celebration that Bush is gone, but I'm just not one for speeches. They're boring. Even the good ones. So instead I used that time to drink some Monster and then get really hyper, so that when I had to go to anatomy and sit "quietly" for 2 hours I was having trouble, but that could've been cuz Dustin kept poking me. With his nice sharp pencil. It hurt!! Finally I had to move seats (I don't think the teacher even noticed me getting up, much less me laughing and yelling at Dustin for the previous hour and a half) but then I was bored.

It's a conundrum alright. Sit near Dustin and Amanda and be distracted the whole time (although still do very well on the tests cuz I'm just that awesome) or don't and then be bored.

Tricky.

Alright, well, this is a very long entry. And I really want to take my first hot shower in my new apartment that I've been living in for a week and a half, so I'm gonna go.

You all have fun.